heyyy!

I need to let things out. I don't have anyone who understands me as much as I understand myself. Hah teruknya bila x ada mood, so many things in mind je baru write shits here. It has been a long time since I update my blog. March 23rd this year. 4 months. Tak lama tapi so many things happened :O Remember failure is the greatest lesson? Yes, life is not fair, sometimes. My business partner was apparently left out from our company. Tak nak cerita why, don't want to point fingers but task was not conducted and problem dia bila you don't walk your talk. So, we separated. Alhamdulillah, I build my own company with my bestfriend, Ahmad Abdul Salam. So far so good, even we start from zero, we are progressively moving towards success. Slowly but surely. I think Ahmad is the best partner so far. He understands me and always keep me going. Any achievement? YES! last month I went for basketball referee level 2 (state level) certificate. And yes! I berjaya with flying colors. So happy!

I feel life is so hard these days. I grinding and keep on going. Imagine 20 hours of working without sleeping. 1 permanent job and 4 part-time jobs. I tak faham why #sayaZahra campaign di anjurkan. I understand the speech is just wanted to voice out what young generation feels. But trust me, the life that our parents facing masa sekolah/muda dulu lagi sedih. Imagine my mom and my aunties yang lain yatim by the age of 5 and duduk rumah atap bocor, makan kari ayam dalam tin kuah satu periuk tak ada ayam pun (seketul dua je ayam kongsi 5 beradik dgn atuk) minum air paip pergi sekolah, and they never complaint. Pergi sekolah every end of month kene berdiri atas kerusi sebab tak bayar yuran bulanan sekolah RM3.00 (mak tak dapat exception yuran sebab atok bukan rakyat malaysia). Atok kerja hari hari bawa beca sehari income 20sen je nak bagi makan anak beranak pun tak cukup. Ya Allah sedihnya. Bila mak start cerita zaman sekolah I still can see tears running from her eyes. You don't tell me what is survival, Don't tell me what is mengemis means to you..

I don't have anything to say regarding government. Speculations are everywhere. We'll see how it goes. And my opinion does not matter. So why should I care? Don't blame the system if you failed. Work your ass. :)

Hey ! Didn't know you're still breathing. \o/

A year passed by and I didn't update anything here. It doesn't mean that my life is so plain. It means that I was busy dealing with the oxygen, people, bullshits and things. What a year passed by has turn me into? Still a sucker for penny, a bit wiser for life. Being more focused and having a clear visionary was my primary life goal. By the way, I'm providing the best fitness training program for all ladies that wanted to lose weight (just because I care and I wanna save a life) nothing much.

Besides I was so thankful that a year down the road I met Asiv and Adam and only God knows what are we chasing for. And thank God we are in the same boat. I learned being limitless, being prepared for future. For my kid's future and 5 years plan from now. All you need is to PDCA (plan–do–check–act // plan–do–check–adjust) by adjusting things means that I really need to improvised my work in terms of everything. Work, fitness training and relationships (with parents, friends, lover and God).

Any achievement? Not that I expected so far. I used to pursue my Master program last time, but shit happened, I dropped out and I got accepted to one of good company in Petaling Jaya. And I'm loving it so much. The people, the work is just awesome. Nothing much. Life transition has been so fast for me. I guess it's my call to retire at young age. Because my goal is always to 'retire rich, retire young' I shouldn't be doing anything by the age of 30.

friends

The heartbeat of yours is so clear,
and baby don't deny these feelings,
I can tell by the way you stare,
and the way you move your body.

Remember we used to hold hands,
steal kisses with each other,
playing with each other like a baby,
sing along to stupid love songs.

I just don't understand,
this whole thing was just a lie,
you told me I was just a friend,
that you needed when you were lonely.

The distance it what keeps us apart,
they said the hearts will grow fonder,
told you it'll just make you go wonder,
just hold on to what we used to have,
I want you for the rest of my life.

Love

It was clear to see that you mean everything to me,
But you just fled and ran away,
I didn't know where it went wrong,
or how this whole thing is happening.

Thought you were the one for me,
you fit me perfectly I swear,
your smile is everything that I yearn,
your soul is just amazing as you

The picture of us kissing is still in my mind,
you gave me strength to carry on this life
without you I fall down,
I fall down with millions stars in the sky,
No moonshine to light my way,
No sunrise to keep me awake.

If I could turn back time,
I would just hold you in my arms,
giving you everything that I can,
carry you through this game of life.

hmm