Friday, January 14, 2011

biar apa kau nak kata

hello dunia.
dalam hidup ini aku bukan ada satu tuju.
aku bukan ada satu arah,
aku bukan ada satu matlamat,
hidup aku pelbagai.
pelbagai bagai. aku pasti semua org pun sama?
cuma tak ada orang yang faham betul
apa kau rasa dalam hati kau itu.
pernah dulu aku cakap kan
suara hati tu kalau di dengarkan, boleh bawak bencana.
cerita soal pelajaran, oh banyak lagi topik yang aku harus mahir.
cerita soal cinta, aku ada satu orang cinta hati sahaja.
cerita soal ghairah, itu bola dan keranjang mampu buat aku ghairah.
bila kau cerita pasal masa aku,
oh, silap besar bhai,
sebab aku tahu mana satu yang utama.
aku bukan duduk goyang kaki 24jam 7hari satu minggu
melangok tunggu mesej dan call dari cinta hati.
aku ada hidup lain. pasti juga dia.
aku bukan setiap minggu boleh berjumpa cinta hati,
telekomunikasi buat kami dekat.
berbulan sekali pun jarang.
tapi itu semua bukan alasan untuk bersama.
maaf lah, ada benda yang lebih penting.
dua per tiga bahagian hati aku dia dah empunya.
aku tak kisah apa sudah,
kami memang satu hati. tak ada apa boleh pisah.
gegar lah kuat mana, tiup lah kencang mana.
izinDia, berpegang lah teguh kami.
biar apa semua nak kata, aku bercakap lebat,
aku berbual rancak, sebab semua nya
aku sahaja yang rasa. baik buruk sudah akan. semua.
tak ada org yang lebih tahu selain Dia maha Pencipta.
(:

Thursday, January 13, 2011

too close


I remember yesteryear
when I was about to make that shot
when I was about to hear the crowd calling my name
when I was about to dunk that ball in the net
when I was about to sweat all those pain
but I FAILED
why?
because of my injury at me ankle
It hurts me badly
It pulls all my confident
It tear me apart like a child crying when she lost her mom
I hate that feelings.
deep inside I still want to give my best shot
to struggle more
to do what I haven't done.
I need you. I need you badly.
raise me up, just raise me up.
ankle, please be nice,
I need you, seriously
to run and to do just everything,
be strong okay? I love you as much as I love my other organs.

Wednesday, January 12, 2011

avril- i will be

There’s nothing I could say to you
Nothing I could ever do to make you see
What you mean to me
All the pain the tears I cried
Still you never said goodbye and now I know how far you’d go
I know I let you down but it's not like that now
This time I’ll never let you go

I will be all that you want and get myself together
Cause you keep me from falling apart
All my life I’ll be with you forever
To get you through the day and make everything OK

I thought that I had everything I didn’t know what life could bring
But now I see honestly
You're the one thing I got right
The only one I let inside
Now I can breathe 'cause you're here with me
And if I let you down I’ll turn it all around
Cause I would never let you go

I will be all that you want and get myself together
Cause you keep me from falling apart
All my life I’ll be with you forever
To get you through the day and make everything OK

Cause with out you I can’t sleep
I’m not gonna ever ever let you leave
You’re all I got
You’re all I want
Yeah
And without you I don’t know what I’d do
I could never ever live a day with out you
Hear with me do you see you're all I need

And I will be all that you want and get myself together
Cause you keep me from falling apart
All my life (my life) I will be with you forever
To get you through the day and make everything OK

I will be (I’ll be) all that you want and get myself together
Cause you keep me from falling apart
And all my life you know I will be with you forever
To get you through the day and make everything OK

Tuesday, January 11, 2011

he lost his virginity at early age

My dad lost his virginity when he was
18. before marriage.
without wearing any protection,
the woman he lost his virgin with got pregnant.
That is my step-brother, Kelvin.
Kalvin and I are very close.
sharing stuffs and all.
I never met Kelvin's mom obviously,
when she last disappeared after dad married my mom.
that what they've said.
I don't even care bout her.
I want to share my story here, as all of you know,
I'm a big grownup teenage, I am currently 20.
I can do anything I like.
do you know that,
knowing my dad lost his virgin at the early age
makes me really want to lost mine too.
I want to know how does it feels like
to lost my virginity at this very young age.

I had conversations with Kelvin.
I once asked him,
when did he lost his virginity.
do you know what he said?
he said he really don't want to be like
his dad and his mom.
Daddy past ways have influenced Kelvin
by learning how to protect himself
from having a child at the early age
from happening & also learn to wait
because at the end it's for a good reason.

people always said that
the sensation is worth it
if you save ur virginity
until marriage.
which on the second thought;
What happens when on the wedding night
and subsequent nights if you
realize your sexual tastes
are different with your mates?
does that shows that sex is vital?
From a purely practical perspective,
it also means that having lost one's virginity,
one can then go on to have more sex
and refine one's technique.

allright I'm giving reasons
why to have sex in early age.
Kelvin never seems to agree with me.
he said,
there are three things in life
that is really not worth it
to do or even try.
those three things are very addictive
you can easily get addicted with it.
first is alcohol,
next come drugs and third is sex.
Honestly, I have a pretty old fashioned mind
for me virginity is something
that really need to keep.
but teenage is teenage
when we are seriously
like to do reckless thingy.
we feel like trying everything
we feel like drinking until we got wasted
we feel like fucking hard
we feel like taking all those type of drugs.

teenage.
what ever we do we need
to have boundaries.
have faith.
my late mom taught me
that in life, there are two things,
the good and the bad
the past and the present.
because we choose what we want to do.

Matthew

Sunday, January 9, 2011

friends are meant to last

had a great time
wish to spend
more time with them.
:D thanks for the day.
<3