cancerians

I am a

typical and predicted

and strongly possessed all those

characters of

cancer.

I'm growing too fast.

mom, do you miss me?

do you missed how I used to be?

do you missed every single time

I asked you for the botol susu?

do you miss sleeping beside me

playing with my hair, kissing me

silently while I sleep?

mom, it kills me too knowing I am a big girl now.

I just can't be the old me.

the one who still holding botol susu

everywhere I go, crying every single day

don't want to go to kindergarten.

I knoww deep inside you miss me

roight? don't denyy me.

I am sorry if I am such failure to you :'(

I love you so much, mak.

no wonder you just

smiling when our little

brother saying that,

anis kan anak kesayangan mak.

hmm

no one cares. I don't care a shit either.

being emotional roight noww.

ahh. stress lah.

fahamm tak apa perasaan kau orang

bila parents kau orang treat korang

macam budak budak.

okay for the record semuaa should knoww

mostly apa yang aku buat semuaa

based on parents punya decision :(

so, tolak tambah diorang selalu cakap

I'm not big enough to berdikari.

tak bukan aku nak salah kan parents

hundred percent dalam hal ni.

and yes, it's absolute bout my own self.

the way I make every decision,

things that should make my parents

trust me, well at least give me a chance to

make my own decision & to be

responsible on every decision made.

kalau diorang tak trust aku.

siapa lagi? diri sendiri lah kan?

I have a low self esteem bila borak

pasal family, pasal parents,

pasal siblings. I don't even want to

talk about it either.

why try so hard when no one listens ?

aku pun dah malas nak entertain semuaa orang,

nak impressed semua orang.

aku penat lah. sumpah penat :'(

I've got nothing to impress. No one cares.

even my parents don't care. so?

I am much more handsome than you :)

hello handsome.

it's kind of heart-beat-skipping

whenever I get a text or a call

from youu. you excite me much.

you should know that missing

you is something out of my control.

and thinking about holding a future

together is another out of our sense thingy.

I knoww

oh well, things happened :)

yeah, missing you here.

sunshine.

I was once a gay

having a same sex

relationship is nothing

more or less compared with

men-women love stories.

same sex basically think that

they do not produce offspring

and easy to care each other

based on the mentality of knowing

much more better each other needs.

some common reason why they

become one is basically dumped

from previous normal relationship.

others, family background, education

and et cetera.

I don't have rights to comment on

their behavior. I don't have any

to point out that this and that is haram.

This is an open stuff everyone knows

being gay is wayy against morality.

We still need to respect each other

because of the humanity.

I have nothing to say you seriously need God

you need faith and you need consistency.

change for better :)

you lose nothing, trust me.