hun, this one goes for you.

Thank you for everything hun.

Thank you for the past hundred and

forty one days spent together.

Thank you for accepting me for who I am.

Thank you for being such an inspiration for me.

Thank you for being there for me,

through my ups and down.

For you have seen all my fears and smiles,

thank you for accompany me these days.

Thank you for the love you had and always have

given me and I pretty sure I need it more.

Thank you for the forehead kiss, for the

promise to be with me until the end of time.

Thank you for not only being my lover,

but my bestfriend, my brother, my silly childish partner

and mostly my soulmate.

Thank you for hearing all my blabbers patiently 

standing strong with me.

Thank you for every single thing sayang.

I love you so much, Hadzraie.

You are the greatest thing that ever happen to me.

Atelophobia

Have you ever regret on 

something that you had done?

Honestly,

there's a thing I wish that it has 

an undo button.

Many things, I supposed.

It's like you fell like

mourning and crying your heart out.

I have the fear of imperfection. 

Not that I always wanted to be the best

in everything, 

it is just that what I've done in my past

has more or less give impacts on my future.

It affects my feelings and my thinking.

I think I should learn to expect, allow and accept.

Accepting is the hardest part of all.

It's hard to really accept what had past.

Your past is like a ghost,

it haunts you, it kills you. literally.

I don't know what future holds for me.

I never wanted to expect anything.

Knowing that someone would 

come into your life, accept you wholeheartedly

is more than enough. 

Life is not that easy.

And trust me, life is not that always beautiful.

Pretending that everything is okay

carving smiles on my face is

probably the best I can do.

I wished I laugh harder everyday 

and forget about everything that has happened.

I wished you would hold me tight,

and tell me everything is going to be okay.

Tell me, convincing me that I am doing good, doing great.

I wished you would love me endlessly 

and accept me for who I am.

cross your heart :)

summer

Kiss me hard before you go

Summertime sadness

I just wanted you to know

That, baby, you're the best.

you are my sun.

hey,
it's just the distance.
My heart don't matter.
I'm going no where,
I am here to stay.
Make it every month meeting
me here, okay baby?
I'll wait for you.
I love you.
Hugs.

"he's my sun, he shines me like diamond."