something that you had done?
there's a thing I wish that it has
an undo button.
Many things, I supposed.
It's like you fell like
mourning and crying your heart out.
I have the fear of imperfection.
Not that I always wanted to be the best
it is just that what I've done in my past
has more or less give impacts on my future.
It affects my feelings and my thinking.
I think I should learn to expect, allow and accept.
Accepting is the hardest part of all.
It's hard to really accept what had past.
Your past is like a ghost,
it haunts you, it kills you. literally.
I don't know what future holds for me.
I never wanted to expect anything.
Knowing that someone would
come into your life, accept you wholeheartedly
is more than enough.
Life is not that easy.
And trust me, life is not that always beautiful.
Pretending that everything is okay
carving smiles on my face is
probably the best I can do.
I wished I laugh harder everyday
and forget about everything that has happened.
I wished you would hold me tight,
and tell me everything is going to be okay.
Tell me, convincing me that I am doing good, doing great.
I wished you would love me endlessly
and accept me for who I am.