there's a time
bila orang tanya aku
are you okayyy?
said, yeah, im fine.
doing great, life made easy.
but the fact is I'm hurting
deeply on the inside.
I can fake all those smiles
I can tell everyone I'm
doing just fine.
but the fact is, I'm fucked up.
the real feeling is that I feel
nothing. empty. I don't know
what shud I feel. should I grieve
or should I be happy and moved on.
I'm moving on thou.
Fuck all craps.
macam ni lah. last night I asked
someone. what is one of your biggest fear?
I told mine. it's predicted as always.
I fear love a lot. I dont trust on relationship
love is overrated.
I mean why giving up so much when
all you get in return is nothing? (:
I'm a person that fall hard for someone.
a person that devoted, giving all I can
to the person I love most.
trust me, you'll never get better than me
because I'm obviously the best.
:) and im not going to waste it.never. (:
There's a time when you feel down.
You feel like to curl up like a child
and cry your heart out and
fall into a deep sleep and
don't want to face the world anymore.
that particular time when you get tired of everything.
and all you think is nothing.
I need my soul back.
where are you?
Im losing my mind.
I'm so fucking tired :(
Some people find arguing is fun.
But for others, they who like to argue a lot
are just some useless cuntbag that talks much.
We don't really care if you want to win the talk.
We lose nothing.
aku benci gila bila cakap ada je
yang nak di betah. last last dia yang salah.
malu weh. lantak kau la
nak cakap bnyk nak argue sampai
menang ke apaaa ke -.-
love doesn't exist
whisper to me in the ear
you'll hurt me.
we were never meant
to be together.
you and me.
eternity is a liar.
tell me I'm not perfect.
tell me you have other person
waiting for youu.
tell me that you lied.
tell me what we had is
not real. tell me I'm a loser.
now tell me out loud,
is it love that being cruel to me
or is it just myself
who are never meant to be
perfect for anyone?
eh engkau ni comel la.
siapa kau nak decide aku
should have gone thru
the broken hearted phase
for a long period of time or not?
and I don't need you to understand
a shit about me.
only if you are interested with me.
then it sumkind of a problem.
sorry la I don't miss you.
what to do. life is about choices.
life is to live to the fullest.
if you appear as anonymous
by commenting my post,
that counts as tak de teloq.
haha. no hard feelings.
thanks for the advice.
mind you, I never really have
that skill in breaking up others' heart.
kau nak emo apehal?
nak comel comel kucing pulak. haha.
penat lah nak grieve lama lamaa.
dapat apa seyy? sakit hati adalah.
baik kau enjoy enjoy life, hidup chillax je.
ada adalah, tak ada tak apaa.
tapi tu lah. kalau kau sayang orang,
bagi all out. tak rugi apa pun.
in the end, their loss not us kan.
macam ni lah,
we live our own life, yours and mine
are two different path.
thanks for the advice mann.
really appreciate it :)
itu intro je. tak ada kene mengena
dengan apa I'm about to write.
mind you moving on is not that hard after all.
why took so long to mend your
broken heart. oh yeaaa,
let me tell you one secret.
in order to have a solid strong heart
you must allowed you heart to be
broken more or less ten to twenty times.
& I've been in that situation.
having a broken heart is not fun.
who likes it anywayyy?
tipu aku heart broken bnyk kali?
comeon, ni secret number 2.
bila kau ada soul connection
dengan someone, make it worth it.
feel it. love them with all your heart.
appreciate every second u spend
together.like seriously. skandal ke,
serious ke. lantak p la.
tapi bila you being with them,
remember, the vow of falling with
fully hearted is vital.
tgk, bila kene hurt, (i don't like calling it dumb)
kau heart broken, make it 10 times,
your heart will get stronger.
stronger macam mana?
macam ni, you'll learn how to
expect, allow and accept.
kalau ada adalah, kalau tak ada tak apa.
faham tak? jgn grieve lama lama
life is to live to the fullest. remeber that.
oh my goddddd
and my abdomen is hurting
and all my muscles all over
me body is contracting
and I find it hard to move.
demmit. sakit weh sakit.
haha. tapi serious best.
tahu tak best macam mana?
best sbb rasa sengal sengal
rasa puas after you've
done the workout effectively.
i like this feeling much.
the microtiny tear of the muscles
that will recover with another
joining muscles is the best
feeling besides sitting at the libry
looking books at the shelves
and get high after smelling and looking
at all over the libry.
hahaha. *bridge, 1min 10sets -..-'*
if you can feel me
I miss you so much
do you knowww?
I miss you and I miss you.
malas nak reload
sbb nak contain the missing
feeling ni sampai dia burst.
haha. weyy, it hurts knowing
that feelings are abstract roight?
but it's okay.
we'll make it thru.
just go with the flow roight?
okay, seriously like
I miss you so much. heh -.-
for having a good time
with friends. for a laughters
at the waterfall, for the
time spent at sentosa
for the movies marathon.
all of them was fantastic.
they are the strong reason
for me to keep on moving,
to live life to the fullest.
all the time we spent together.
all those making silly faces we had
all the laughters we share
and all the things we did,
I am truly missing you right now.
this moment. hee.
can we meet in our next chapter of life?
bila dapat jumpa lagi?
haha.kalau ada jodoh, now u copying my words.
not fair :P i miss you.
take care there handsome (:
maybe we were never meant to be together
we share tears laughters and interest.
you showed me you've been telling me about life.
I do anything in my power to be there for you
whenever you need me, I like you anyway,
you've been a good company to me. thanks.
did you remember the night i sang
one in a million song by neyo to you?
I could just said it i meant it. but it was so soon.
short meeting but I like you. you're hot (:
eh, we'll meet someday, come over lah.
it's not that farr :) like it so much when you say,
miss you too actually. you're so sweet (:
everything is pathetic.
I guess that love wasn't enough.
spread your love like it is the last day
of your life. appreciate everyone around you
even thou they showed up for a while
and even thou they fooling around with your feelings.
because the rule of being a player is,
always has backups :)
kalau aku jadi kau
aku hentak kepala dia
kuat kuat aku pukul
sampai mana dia lemah
nak mati tak ada kudrat
aku sumpah seranah dia
aku maki dia kuat kuat
aku pukul dia hentak
dengan kerusi belasah
muka dia sampai pecah
habis habis aku amik pisau
tikam dia berkali kali
tepat dekat hati.
haa. bagi mati. macam mana
dia buat hati aku mati.
I moved on.
I don't dare to
let myself grieving
for too long.
such a waste of time.
because I have a lot of things
and many handsome and pretty
people around me.
they annoy me when I'm
about feeling down. haha.
bodoh tak bertempat.
had a great time spending
with them. love will come
when you do the things you love
take it or leave it.
life is love yourself to the fullest.
buang masa tahu, down lama lama
sebab hilang orang sebab putus cinta.
geli sikit :B haha.
dah lah, benda dah lepas, meh
kita live for future pulak.
dont get blurry with your past
and present and future.
you may end up gila. haha.
intro: tak suka boleh tapi jangan hina.
maybe ada few yang tak faham.
what the heck is going on dekat
blog aku ni. apesal bunyi dah
macam palat je kan. haha
sini aku try explain.
the fact is the person I love the most
did a very very unpleasing thing.
I wonder how he could hide all
those feelings and pretend to love me
but in the same time he's liking or loving
other girls? It sounds pathetic. really is.
no im not hina, I'm telling.
I will not ask you or begging you for a
explanation or anything.
It's not about hearing from other sides tau.
I'm considering about the past 2 months too.
Where the heck our love went?
I just don't feel you there. see? instinct speaks
louder than anything and the end,
it'll shows you the truth. truth hurts yeaa.
macam mana nak cakap eh?
kau tahu tak sayang aku kat kau tu
kalau dalam bahasa melayu,
aku sayang kau sampai mati.
tapi english version dia,
I love you to death even I promised you
We lived for forever. DON'T YOU REMEMBER?
alamak, semua pathetic, I don't believe every single
thing anymore. I told my mom, she said
let him go, life is sill a long way to go.
10 months for god sake.
well at least a fake happiness can really
make me feel happy. I appreciated.
thanks a lot. stop reading with kesian okay,
I'm fine. I'm totally fine.
amore, I am upset with you and mad.
seriously I am. but you'll know i'll be fine later.
and hisyam, apa you dapat buat I macam ni?
you tinggal orang yang sayang you
separuh nyawa dia? happy? suka lah kan?
tak apa. world is around. so do karma.
we'll see your part.
your drama is coming to the end.
I'm having a heartache almost giving up
on life. but again, life is still a long way to go.
I don't intend to meet you in my
next chapter of life. get away from me.
do you understand me? because u hurt me badly.
I feel fucked up. you happy rite by hurting me?
thank you. I don't know where went wrong
& yes, I am not perfect. never will i be.
you go find other girl that can love you
for half or maybe all her soul and body like
you love amore 100% soul & body.
it's pathetic. really. seriously.
mak kirim salam.
and oh, aku demam sebab kau tunggu nak mati je ni.
kau tak kesah kan? sbb the fact is
kau tak kisah pun pasal aku. kau saja nak main mainkan
feelings aku. terima kasih banyak banyak.
aku quit. bukan loser, tunggu org lain.
reserved sayang aku untuk orang yang deserve.
or else, aku mmg tak pernah layak
untuk siapa siapa pun. yeaa, panggil la aku loser.
tak kesah pun. so long lahh.
I'm tired of everything.
everything means nothing.
forever does not exist.
truth hurts, I love you. still.
thank you so much for what have you done.
macam ruined relation orang tu best kan.
okay lah, aku faham. itu bukan kau nak.
aku faham feelings tu abstract. aku faham
tak boleh control feelings. tapi kau
seronok lah bersenang senang.
where the fact is aku screwed kan.
yeay.mmg padan muka aku lah :)
kalau ada apa apa kau nak explain,
tolong cepat sikit. lagi pun aku x akan
percaya dah. aku penat. aku gave up.
aku memang weak. lagi lagi kalau dalam
hal macam ni. bukan aku ada cakap dulu
once kalau kau happy ada sayang orang lain
aku back off. aku tak fight. tapi kau silap.
aku FIGHT for kau dah. kau lupa.
mudah sangat lupa. tak apa lah.
malam tadi semalaman aku
tak tidur pagi tadi last paper tau.
bukan mintak kesian kau tau.
aku nak beritahu je bagi kau faham.
maybe kau tak rasa apa aku rasa.
yea, aku pun x rasa macam mana kau rasa
rasa tipu orang dengan kau cakap kau sayang dia
rasa tipu orang then lastly aku find out sendiri
rasa feelings tu x boleh control dah lama dah
kau orang berkasih kasih.
rasa macam macam lah kan.
thank you very much.
tak dapat nak express thru words.
aku appreciate semua apa kau buat
kat aku sekarang. penat.
penat dah. aku rasa aku x deserve untuk
siapa siapa pun. aku tak perfect.
aku ni teruk sangat lah, tak reti treat kau.
sorry kalau aku ada buat salah.
banyak sangat salah kat aku
sampai kau sanggup buat aku macam ni kan.
terima kasih cinta,