bodoh je problem ni

I end up laughing at my own problem

so they look silly and funny

and I won't put any pressure upon it.

chillax. life made easy.

just go with the flow.

whatever makes you happy rite? :D

life is fair

sorry i didn't spend much time with you.

because well you know

your life is not all about me.

we have to wait.

we can plan the future but sadly

we cannot decide our future.

hmm. be tough there.

i love you till my last breath.

pening kepala tahu tak?

98/100 kali

aku bukak page

untuk posting new

post dekat blog ni.

banyak tu jugak

I don't have anything

to tell you guys here.

there's a lot of things

that happening to me

lately but when it comes

to write to describe

those feelings i left with

emptiness.

y don't you guys just ask

me apa yang aku rasa?

same old answer,

somehow I don't know

where is my soul.

enough for now.

sakit kepala. even write sikit je ni.

babibetulla.

smoking can make you high

but sadly it won't take away

all your pain and sadness -.-'

benar beliung itu bernyawa?

peduli diri sendiri.

dampar hempas sedepa lautan luas,

muntahkan isi karat

di benak dada serta kotak minda.

lepaskan semua hal,

pekikan sekuat halilintar,

tangisan sederas sungai syurga suci

ranap rebah sujud ke bumi.

gelap gulita cakerawala laksana

ditelan raksasa naga bernafsu binatang.

tergapai cahaya takterlihat dek

luaran, tak terjangaku dek akal.

tegak kaku berdiri kudrat sendiri.

ibarat hati dirobek teman berlari.

dudukletak diri percaya sendiri.

berteman tak disangkal,

berjiwa sungguh berbunga.

tatkala beliung memecah bahagia,

ketika amukkan taufan meraung,

dan setiap detik nya

kasih jiwa nurani sang suci

masih terpaut lekat teguh

pada sang pendekar.

i miss you :)

i like her much.

Because she is

so adorable :)

No doubt.

Story of the Year-Anthem Of Our Dying Day

jgn nak dear diary sangat lah -..-

Dear diary,

I know u hurt yourself by letting me

to write about sad stories, emotional posts

and such. but you know I love you.

I mean, all this while you've been there

for me. thru my ups and downs.

You're always been there for me.

Listen to my chatters,

my sadness my tears my laughters and wtv.

It's like I'm nothing without you.

I can't keep everything inside me.

I mean, there's a thing I want to share

to let go to make my mind a little spacious.

thanks baby enough.

it is ur name at the earlier posts aite? hee.

funny. AHAA.

okay. cut this craps.

all i want to say. is thank you online journal.

you've made my day.

i used to keep my own hard-copy journal

but now i am not a deardiarywriteranymore.

hmm. there's nothing much going on so far.

glad to say and sharee,

I met my old lovely friend.

we lost connection like a year and plus.

thanks for the visit.

It was wonderful to have a conversation

with you.

:)

yes she is

"women was made from the rib of man,

she was not created from his head to top him,

not from his feet to be stepped upon,

she was made from his side to be close to him,

from beneath his arm to be protected

by him near to be loved by him.."

yes I'am ugly

I may be the ugliest girl you've ever meet

but trust me, my love is the greatest thing that will ever happen to you.

pagi pagi lagi ni

haa. why are you still wide

awake at this hour?

0430hrs. serious laa.

sebab tadi petang tidur tak ingat

dunia. hujan lebat

kilat dentam dentum pun

tak dengar sebab syok

sangat tidur. haaa. :D

padan muka tak boleh tidur,

sekejap lagi terus siap

pegi class pukul sepuluh. amik kau.

sbb apa. aku stuck dengan

Vampire diaries ni haa.

mmg mmg cerita ni dah

lama. tapi aku bukan drama's freak.

haha. tak ada masa nak cari2

cerita korea lah, cina lah, jepun la.

HAHA. hollywood actors lagi

mouth-watering kot. HAHA.

recently am listening to this

one (Editors) UK indie band's songs.

syok weh, tom smith. haa.

his voice is superb macam uncle

sedang mengalami sakit tekak

apabila bernyanyi. HAHA.

fuhh fuhh,

i have my own damon,

gedempol,

you're so gojes look like him one lah.

pelis jangan kembang okay?

pelis lah jadi vampire

abb i want you to bite me harder,

haha. tak menahan-..-

oh btw,

EVERY GIRL HAS TAYLOR SWIFT INSIDE THEM,

this is so truee.

haaa. betul serious tak tipu.

and every guy is so wannabe ne-yo.

he's the sweetest guy ever alive

before the rise of bruno mars. HAHA.

panjang nya intro -.-'

hey babypolpol.

I miss you so much lah.

count the days till we meet again.

there they go again,

"how cud you possibly hold on to

long distance relationship?"

It's our trust that keep us strong.

It's nothing, what matters most

is your thinking and the mindset.

:D

universitas di sini

petikan diambil kira kira jam

dua PAGI waktu malaysia.

kepada penyaman kolej kolej

seantero malaysia.

kami memohon agar waktu

samanan di pertimbangkan

dan dititik berat kan.

ini kerana, haha. dah malas nak sambung.

nak saman pun tak kan

pagi pagi org tga berdengkur?

huish. patut jugak kut. :D

I miss you hisyam

dear john

dear John,

"you're a life saver"

<3

Savannah

no sound but the wind

"Help me to carry the fire

We will keep it alight together

Help me to carry the fire

It will light our way forever"

I love you gedempol.

weh, i miss you too

I miss you even moree.

hee.

*HUGS*

I want to escape

hello world.

ahh. it's so nice to have a conversation

here. with me sitting here mumbling

and you guys reading and do the thinking.

so how is life treating everyone out there?

I wish & I pray for everyone happiness. :D

life is too short to be sad.

I don't have things to talk about recently.

I'm having a good life.

everything seems to be so perfect.

how I can be so sure about that?

one of my good friend once said,

life is full of things.

good and bad.

happy or unhappy.

and its up to us to set it right.

we lead our own life and we choose our own path.

with the gift given by God to mankind, which the power of free will.

we can choose to believe and make things better.

no matter how fucked up things smack us right in the face.

allright, I get it. we can choose to

believe and make things better.

how is that so simple huh? (:

ye lah, from the start I did tell you.

we choose what our future.

we are what we are. (:

have fun, and enjoy your life

to the fullest guys.

because we only live once.

baby, can we just escape this life

and run to vanice having a good time there?

pleash.pleash.pleashh :DD

weh, nampak tak tuu?

we can walk and having a good time

together. haa. jom laa. jom? ;D

haha

that's all

a short note for you no.4

dear hisyam baby,

hey, cuti mid sem dah habis.

sekarang dah nak habis sem dua pulak.

serious. cepat kan time flies by.

and oh, cepat jugak masa kita

spend sama sama. tgk dah ratus ratus hari.

hee. i rindu u lah.

you take care, have a good rest,

and most important is to

stay strong. hee.

ingat mama i cakap apa,

layan kan je. haa. layan kan je lah ok?

jangan pressure pressure.

i tahu u busy. take a good care

of your self.

drink a lot of plain water.

don't smoke too much,

and I love you so much okay bee bee.

i'll be here. give me a call or text

anytime. I'll be there for you.

every mili sec.

study hard and smart this sem ohkay?

*HUGS*

with love,

anies

college

hah. macam mana.

dah balik college semula.

-.-'

homesick la macam ni.

tak puas cuti lagi.

:(

gedempol :)

bila orang tanya aku,

macam mana?

oh, dia sangat sabar

layan kerenah aku.

sebab itu kami stay strong.

sebab dua hati dah tied

kuat kuat.

even pernah lah bersedih,

tapi bila ada angin tiup

dia tak pernah goyah.

goncang lah kuat mana

pun, aku tahu dia

kuat,

relation tu macam

satu bnd precious.

kan sayang?

nak forever boleh tak?

bulan satu

semua nya indah indah.

bagai mati bernafas semula.

ingin kan satu kelainan

berjanji sehidup semati

berjanji tidak akan pergi

bulan dua

semua masih lagi indah,

masih behagia yang dirasa

saling bercakap soal lama

tak apa lah,

semua itu jadi sejarah.

jadi kan pengalaman banyak makna

bulan tiga

ocean avenue jadi lagu tema

lupa? cuba bukak semula

flytome itu kalau masih ingat

tolong baca entry 16 bulan sembilan

itu sangat menyentuh hati

I had enough of loosing you

ingat, sbb saya punya lah

saya risau.

bulan empat

masih lagi bahagia yang dirasa

because i am your soulmate,

true bestfriend, and your life.

oh, bulan tiga tadi ber jumpa

ingat macam mana jumpa?

pertama kali,

tak habis cakap,

awak ni handsome lah (:

ok,oktober betul bulan cinta

bulan lima

oh bulan ni ada turun dia

awak cakap benda paling takut

is sayang saya?

hmm, ingat satu sahaja

kita usaha, tawakal lah sahaja.

mula rasa jauh

aku: kawan, normal tak rasa

macam tak ada rasa

apa apa dalam relation

kawan: itu normal, sabar tunggu

next phase akan rasa lagi sayang

itu benar belaka, benar sgt

masa berlalu sayang lagi erat

bulan enam

ini bulan paling gembira

tahu kenapa?

jauh jauh datang semata jumpa.

ingat di dapur,

lemas dengan pandangan itu,

masa jahit seluar,

sumpah rasa tak bernafas & malu.

oh, di cafe. ini paling gemar bukan?

bulan tujuh

bulan ini penuh dengan cinta

rasa bahagia ter amat sangat

terima kasih.

mungkin sikap sabar

yang buat saya kagum.

sabar betul melayan kerenah.

maaf lah, kisah sebab

saya sayang awak.

kalau tak sayang,

sumpah saya tak akan kisah.

boleh minta bulan lebih lagi,

bagi cinta itu marak lagi.

rindu saya tak?

hee. bulan lapan.

saya tak sambut valentine.

tapi saja nak tny,

wud u be my valetine.

haha.

sumpah aku yang macho

ask him out. -..-

:PP

baby

I was looking for you.

seriously I am.

(:

Thriving Ivory - Flowers for a ghost (lyrics.)

it's a new season

When the cold came,
the dark days when fear crept into my mind.
the past 7 months was a blissful
to me. seriously.
thank you sayang.
I need a hug.
because I am not strong enough.
please,

"Just A Dream" by Nelly - Sam Tsui & Christina Grimmie

I was thinkin about you, thinkin about me.
Thinkin about us, what we gonna be?
Open my eyes; it was only just a dream.
I travel back, down that road.
Will you come back? No one knows.
I realize, it was only just a dream.

I was at the top and I was like I’m in the basement.
Number one spot and now you found your own replacement.
I swear now that I can't take it, knowing somebody's got my baby.
And now you ain't around, baby I can't think.
I shoulda put it down. Shoulda got that ring.
Cuz I can still feel it in the air.
See your pretty face run my fingers through your hair.

My lover, my life. My baby, my wife.
You left me, I'm tied.
Cuz I know that it just ain't right.

I was thinkin about you, thinkin about me.
Thinkin about us, what we gonna be?
Open my eyes; it was only just a dream.
So I travel back, down that road.
Will you come back? No one knows.
I realize, it was only just a dream.

When I'm ridin I swear I see your face at every turn.
I'm tryin to get my usher on, but I can let it burn.
And I just hope you'll know you're the only one I yearn for.
No wonder I'll be missing when I'll learn?

Didn't give you all my love, I guess now I got my payback.
Now I'm in the club thinkin all about you baby.

Hey, you were(was) so easy to love. But wait, I guess that love wasn't enough.

I'm goin through it every time that I'm alone.
And now i'm wishin that she'd pick up the phone.
But she made a decision that she wanted to move one.
Cuz I was wrong...

And I was thinkin about you, thinkin about me.
Thinkin about us, what we gonna be?
Open my eyes; it was only just a dream.
So I travel back, down that road.
Will you come back? No one knows.
I realize, it was only just a dream.

If you ever loved somebody put your hands up.
If you ever loved somebody put your hands up.
And now they're gone and you're wishing you could give them everything.
Ohhh, if you ever loved somebody put your hands up.
(if you ever loved somebody put your hands up.)
If you ever loved somebody put your hands up.
(if you ever loved somebody put your hands up.)
And now they're gone and you wish you could give them everything.

I was thinkin about you, thinkin about me.
Thinkin about us, what we gonna be?
Open my eyes (open my eyes); it was only just a dream (it's just a dream).
I travel back (travel back) (i travel back), down that road (down the road)(down the road).
Will you come back? No one knows (no one knows).
I realize, it was only just a dream (No, no, no...).

And I was thinkin about you, thinkin about me.
Thinkin about us, what we gonna be?
Open my eyes (open my eyes) (open my eyes); it was only just a dream (it's just a.. it's just a dream).
So I travel back, down that road.
Will you come back? No one knows.
I realize (i realize), it was only just a dream
(baby, it was only just... it was only just a dream

(:

hey,

sebab aku malas nak fight

benda remeh temeh.

sebab aku malas nak deal

fikir pusing benda sikit.

sebab aku ada bnyk lagi

benda lain nak fikir.

macam ni lah.

kalau betul apa semua tu.

betul lah.

bnyk kali aku bilang

aku bukan fighter.

aku lemah weak sangat

handle benda benda mcm ni,

aku tahu,

kita syg dia, kita biar dia

bahagia. itu sahaja.

thanks for the Qs

aku rasa dah cukup

clear kan? (:

bee bee

weh,

i miss you so much la.

miss you damn much.

miss you so much.

hmmm.

hmm.

because god

knows the best.

to those who having a rough time.

scandal phase:

The rules are always as simple as abc,

you get to know each other,

you talk about each other interest,

you flirt a lil bit here and there,

you consider about being serious,

if things never go well between you guys,

realizing you're just not meant to be together,

figure the simplest way out.

take it or leave it.

p/s: it's okay.

you'll meet someone

that can treat you far more better,

sooner or later.

so no rush darling,

february datang lagi.

hello february.

guess what,

we meet again.

I really hope for a

good and nice february.

please be kind.

and hey gedempol

for the past 2 seasons

I really had a great time

with you,

wishing for a

more more happiness

with you sayang. ilytd.