the bigger the prettier

because baju kurung and
extra large boyfie shirt
makes a woman look sexier,
:O
can i have your shirt bee? ;DD
haha.nicee

syaniza sufian, This is for you

post ini untuk seorang rakan yang akrab;
Syaniza Sufian <3

eh, haih, aku rindu
waktu dulu dulu
waktu kita mula kenal.
kau tahu aku kenal kau
dari ruzen kan.
oh, kalau dah JB tu nama
nyaa mmg ngamm lah :)
dan pertikai soal sekolah,
terus terang aku pun
tak suka beritahu aku
asal mana. :(
dan aku bukan kalangan y lain tu.
baik, aku teruskan.
mula aku rapat, saat
selalu ke sports center UiTM
s.alam. sana, aku kenal ramai.
cerita kau tentang solihin (:
terdetik dalam hati,
haihh, korg sungguh bahagia lah.
bila mana aku beritahu kau
tentang pencuri hati aku dulu,
respon kau bagai ada sesuatu
yang tak kena, yang kau tak suka.
aku biarkan.
hmm, tak ada, tak berpanjangan ceritera nya.
aku tak salahkan takdir.
minta kau teman potong rambut.
alasan, aku rimas dengan nak final exam nyaa.
aku rindu rambut lama.
entah, rasa mcm nak potong.tak ada alasan.
terus, ke rooftop. atas sana,
bnyk kau cerita kan kat aku.
banyak sgt. bagi aku semangat.
cermin diri. biarkan apa jadi.
and most important thing,
just be yourself :')
thanks Syan. <3
mungkin selang berapa bulan
kau lihat aku merapu.
masa tu,
love life aku semua sgt sucks kau tahu?
aku nak kan mcm kau, taty,
tapi. yes, aku tau.
semua relation ada turun naik dia.
no doubt.
*tapi sekarang sumpah aku bahagia dgn yang sedia ada* :')
Kemudian, aku lupa bila aku mula
renggang, rasa sedikit jauh dengan kau.
hmm. aku tak faham.
aku cakap dekat taty, ada benda yang tak lepas.
ohh, dan aku tak boleh figure out itu.
hmm. aku harap friendship kita
okay okay sahaja.
(: aku rindu bnyk waktu kita spend
time sama sama dulu.
ohh, thanks bnyk kali tgk aku main
bola keranjang. itu pun, aku rindu. (:

love,
faez.

dress to impress

do you dress to impress
or dress for comfort?
i love being a woman,
dressing like a woman
and i don't do it
to impress anyone.
i dress that way because i like it.
I dress depending on mood most of the time.

a girl with a good figure in a pair of jeans
and a casual little top
with minimal makeup
a lot sexier than
some girl wearing tons of makeup,
layers of frufruey lace,
and ball-stomping high heels.

And I can be either pretty masculine or nice feminine.
I should thank god for that. HAHA

greatest thing

And in LOVE, your vibe is really buzzing;
with it's highest possible frequency.
In LOVE, you'll attract so many things to inspire you.
And whether that's love for another person,
or for a place of experiences, or things you LOVE to do,
that feeling of LOVE is the perfect antidote
for despair and depression.
And simply by taking these incremental
baby steps to feel good,
you'll find that achieving love,
or anything else you want.
IT NOT SO HARD AFTER ALL.
(:

charlie st. cloud reminds me of you :')

"Trust your heart
if the seas catch fire,
live by love though
the stars walk backwards."
-e.e cummings

mesti boleh lompat tinggi lagi :D

sebab saya tahu
saya boleh lompat tinggi lagi
cecah langit biru
tak pijak bumi
dan sampai bintang.
oh, gedempol,
thanks for ur support.
kalau tak ada awak,
mesti board tu jatuh atas kepala.
sama mcm spirit saya.
terima kasih okay?
*sbb bola keranjang itu passion nama dia*
(:

I need my mom :(

because I'm a HIGH HOPE person.
I may not have self-confidence,
but I am the master of myself.
My thoughts control my actions.
because people believe in you, why don't you?
:'( I need a hug please.

because I said so,

because when I said I love you.
I don't mind how the love hurting me.
I've pledge,
I'll do whatever for you.
I care nothing.
You could do anything
and I would not find fault with it,
because I love you
and all I can see in you is lovely.

make it stay please

because sometimes
I can just staring into space
and cried my heart out loud.
It's a blissful feeling.
and please. make it stay.

profiling test result

cheers for
PM DR. SYED MOHAMED SHAFEQ B SYED MANSOR
Deputy Director
UTM Counseling & Career Centre

get to know me better?
-.-
yeaa rite. HAHA

teardrops in the sky

because you are my red wine and cigarette.
I get high every time you with me.
You are an angel from above,
keeping my heart beat blissfully.
If you should ever, ever go away,
there would be lonely tears to cry,
the sun above would be never shine again,
there would be teardrops in the sky.

So hold me close and never let me go
and say our love will always be.

You gotta breath her

HAVE YOU EVER REALLY LOVED A WOMAN?
bryan adams

To really love a woman
To understand her
You gotta know her deep inside
Hear every thought
See every dream
And give her wings when she wants to fly

And when you find yourself
Lying helpless in her arms
You know you really love a woman

When you love a woman
You tell her that she’s really wanted
When you love a woman
You tell her that she’s the one
She needs somebody
To tell her that it’s gonna last forever
So tell me have you ever really
Really really ever loved a woman

To really love a woman
Let her hold you
Do you know how she needs to be touched ?
You gotta breath her
Really taste her
To you can feel her in your blood
Then when you can see your unborn children in her eyes
You know you really love a woman

When you love a woman
You tell her that she’s really wanted
When you love a woman
You tell her that she’s the one
She needs somebody
To tell her that you’ll always be together
So tell me have you ever really
Really really ever loved a woman

You got to give her some faith
Hold her tight
A little tenderness
You gotta treat her right
She’ll be there for you
Taking good care of you
You really gotta love your woman

And when you find yourself
Lying helpless in her arms
You know you really love a woman

When you love a woman
You tell her that she’s really wanted
When you love a woman
You tell her that she’s the one
She needs somebody
To tell her that it’s gonna last forever
So tell me have you ever really
Really really ever loved a woman
Just tell me have you ever really
Really really ever loved a woman
Just tell me have you ever really
Really really ever loved a woman.

mana todi tadi?

lihat dari sudut mereka,
baru aku tahu dan faham,
kenapa mereka togak arak sampai mabuk
dan hilang arah,
mungkin mereka tak sanggup
nak menghabiskan malam malam
mereka dengan kesedihan dan air mata?
sebab mereka nak rasa hilang dari
dunia realiti untuk sementara?
aku tak pasti.
:(

emotions

The emotionally intelligent person is skilled in four areas:
identifying emotions,
using emotions,
understanding emotions,
and regulating emotions.

ADAM or KEIKO?

I wonder this boy is Adam or Keiko?
HAHAH

you mean the world to me

come here baby,
let me shed all your fears.
I'll stand by you forever.
you have nothing to worry.
yes, nothing u confess
can make me love you less.
forever is possible
time flies so fast
years waiting worth for a lifetime darling.
WE belong to you and me.
I'll be your third ear,
sit beside you and
listen to all your fears.
let it all out baby. For me,
I had seen the dark side too.
we share bed, pillow,
toothbrush, t shirts,
everything.
yes at times when I feel so lonely,
i feel lost, I cried myself
so hard wanting you beside me,
and missing you badly.
how I tell everyone to never get involve
with long distance relationship.
( you got to be very tough and have faith in each other)
but then, when I think it twice,
I can see your face clearly every time
I close my eyes.
I can feel you by my side.
I wonder how possible you could do that?
:')
if I ever get a chance,
every minute,
every second counting,
i would say
"thanks for loving me"
because you mean the world to me

kau silap besar

kalau ada org appreciate kau,
kenapa mesti nak
sia sia kan dia?
kalau ada org sanggup
mati demi kau,
kenapa nak pertikaikan dia?
ye, memang kau silap.
silap sangat sebab
kau pernah sia sia kan dia.
apa kau dapat?
hari hari kosong yang penuh
dengan darah dan nanah.
penyesalan yang tak sudah.
kalau kau bagun
dan tak terus leka.
baguslah
sebab kau kena tahu
menilai mana kaca mana permata.
kaca tu yang tajam
boleh tusuk hati kau dalam dalam.
permata tu yang
bersinar sinar.
aku ingat kan, maaf tu tak cukup.
kau perlu bayar ganti
semua kesedihan kemurungan
yang dia lalui
habiskan sisa sisa hidup tanpa kau.
janji untuk ditepati
setia untuk ditaati
dendam untuk dikeji
aku harap kau faham ini semua.
(:

hold me tight dont ever let me go

Nothing you confess can make me love you less

:D

haha. gedempol

comfortable to be with
is what every partner
searching for.
<3

because I LOVE YOU so

and I'm fucking meant it :D
bee,
as I told you before,
I will always
represent the true backbone
and fighting spirit for you.
when I said, I'd like to be
yours until the end of time,
then, I truly meant it (:
I believe
in faith and time that keep us together
for god's sake. :DD
I LOVE YOU forever
*kerut hidung, muka comel*
and oh gedempol,
I'm afraid to say, you'll
never find another girl
that can make a sweet and nice
a cup of coffee or tea, :P

mandul :O

How Is Infertility Diagnosed?

few days back. aku asik tny mak & ayah,
mcm mana nak tahu sumone tu mandul :O
haha. so, diorg pun tercari cari dok tny mak bidan, bomoh semua
pun tak ada idea, so. wiki je lah kan. HAHA
bet, korg pun tak pernah fikir.
haha. this is what happens when ur child
ada lots of Qs yet u can't answer.
haihh. kene bwk radio signal kemana2 nak wiki. HAHA

If a woman has an infertility problem, she will be referred to a doctor who specializes in reproductive endocrinology. Her diagnostic tests may include:

1) Blood tests and urine tests to check hormone levels.

2) A Pap smear to study the health of the cervix.

3) Urine tests to evaluate LH surges.

4) A basal body temperature test, which checks whether the woman is releasing eggs from her ovaries. A woman's temperature rises slightly during the days she ovulates. The woman will chart her basal body temperature every day for a few months on a graph. She will take her temperature orally or may take her temperature vaginally with a special ultra-sensitive thermometer available at most drugstores.

5) An endometrial biopsy, in which the doctor removes a piece of tissue in the uterine lining. Examining this tissue will tell the physician whether eggs have been released and whether the corpeus luteum is producing enough progesterone.This test is often done if the results from the woman's basal body temperature chart are unclear.

6) An ultrasound to look for fibroids and cysts in the uterus and ovaries. This test uses sound waves to picture the uterus and ovaries, causes little discomfort, and is very effective.

7) A postcoital test, in which the doctor takes a sample of mucous from the woman's vagina. She must have the test during her fertile days and within 12 hours after she and her partner have sex. The test will tell the doctor if the man's sperm can survive in the woman's cervical mucous.

MAN:

The man may be asked to undergo this test twice, because some illnesses such as infections or viruses can affect the sperm. If a man has abnormal sperm, he'll be referred to a fertility specialist, where he'll experience more tests, such as:

1) Hormonal blood tests.

2) Imaging tests that check for swollen veins or reproductive system blockages.

3) A testicular biopsy. This is a procedure done in the office. The doctor takes bits of tissue from the testes, and this tissue is examined to see whether the cells that produce the sperm are working properly.

4) Anti-sperm antibody tests, which check whether the woman's mucous rejects the man's sperm. These tests also show whether the man produces antibodies to reject his own sperm.

5) A hamster egg test, which studies the sperm's ability to penetrate a hamster egg. The outer covering of the egg is removed to allow the sperm to more easily penetrate. This test cannot result in a living embryo. It's expensive, however, and sometimes unreliable.

6) A human zona penetration test, which tests whether the man's sperm can fertilize dead human eggs. Again, this test cannot result in a living embryo, and is thought to be more reliable than the hamster egg test.

7) A bovine cervical mucous test, which checks whether the sperm can penetrate cervical mucous taken from a cow.

Health workers will check the man's semen for several factors:

• sperm count (20 to 100 million sperm is the normal number)
• movement
• maturity and shape of the sperm (which reveal its quality)
• the amount of sperm produced (one teaspoon is sufficient)
• acidity (the semen should be slightly acidic)

haa, dah. few tests will be conducted.
tak ada hal lah.
susah sgt nak tggu jawapan mak bidan
belakang kampung. HAHA.
this is not a joke. it's serious life matter man.
it's something valuable to understand.
:DD

nenek mmg suka sakat saya

1st day raya: DONE
went to nenny's place at 1600hrs.
isn't that too late to celebrate eid mubarak?
haa, tale as old as time,
the same routine every eid (:
tak ada kampung kan.
but what ever it is,
I still appreciate today.
because we still have a chance
to celebrate eid with family (:
and bee. oh, do you know how much i miss you?
4minutes call is not enough lah gedempol.
aaaa, there is so much i nak gosip
nak bgtau because my eid
is kindda so-so lah this year.
sharing laughter with cousins and nenek
is something that I treasure most.
:DD I MISS YOU HUNNYBEE :'(


jap, I nak share something,
nak jadi org joho kan?
belajar ni dulu :PP ;

samar: pink colour
jingga: orange colour
biji kundang: purple colour
tepung bawang: curry puff
terik: pulling someone's sarong

and lain lain
simple je mcm gebar, grobok. etc.
HAHAHA

gypsy

it's gypsy theme.
and oh, this is what happens
when raya tak ada kampung
you stuck in front of lappie
pagi first day raya -.-'
anyhow, rancangan TV mmg best.
HAHA

habuk masuk mata

0318hrs.

Faeznur sayang,
SELAMAT HARI RAYA, maaf zahir dan batin.
I nak minta maaf semua silap salah I kat u baby.
maaf dari hujung rambut sampai hujung kaki.
I happy sgt dapat celebrate raya this year dgn u baby.
And I hope dapat celebrate raya sampai bila bila dgn u baby.
Selamat hari raya sayang.
I love you :) salam.

haa, you feel the same way too?
okay okay,
mata I masuk habuk,
jgn kacau. :DD
:') heart you
0537hrs i tak bagun lagi u call. -.-
i missed ur call. sorry. oi, mana u ni?
rindu weh rindu. (:

hunnyBEE

mohamad hisyam.

bee, I nak minta maaf
dari hujung rambut sampai
hujung kaki.
sorry for every single thing.
seriously,
I've made a lot of mistakes.
on this hari raya,
i would like to really seek
apology from you bee.
maaf kan i?
and for 2 months 5 days
dgn you,
I feel completely happy
and I sayang you okay
gedempol? :DD
SELAMAT HARI RAYA syg,
( a year waiting worth a lifetime baby )

hari raya (:

bila tiba time raya
semua org sibuk
cakap minta maaf
zahir & batin.

kalau tak time raya
tak boleh ke
nak cakap minta maaf
zahir & batin

sebab tu ada time raya
setahun sekali pun
dpt ucap maaf
zahir & batin

dalam setahun sekali raya
sekali raya tu lah
luntur ego ucap maaf
zahir & batin

haa, konklusi
SELAMAT HARI RAYA
maaf zahir & batin
kalau kau PERFECT sgt,
kau alien, bukan orang,

put ur sneakers on and get going

blahh. HAHA
okay been days tak update belog.
I don't do personal diaries kat belog act.
HAHA. due to recent activities yang
mengancam n best, so
here they are:
(short & quick one)

Friday the 3rd until monday the 6th.
venue: sunway pyramid and places all over KL lumpur
occasion: high school reunion, dating, jalan2, eating, eating and eating :DD
time: 1800hrs - 0530hrs


*I don't get it how the hell on earth
u can wear that freaking high heels?*

oh si hunnybee sayang,
meeting u such a bliss.
haha. I wonder why you hotter than
JACOB BLACK? :PP
thanks for the day.
extremely excited smpai lupa
tangkap gambar sama sama.
HAHA. wtv. I had a great time
with you. seriously.
thanks and sorry for everything bee.
cinta u ketat ketat :DD
*ery, thanks bnyk tolong (: syg kau.*


haha, ni lagi satu bnd sengal.
k.dayah. yes, kita buat
bnyk sgt activities.
sumpah semua best and lawak.
hahaha. thanks a million :DD
sir kei, thanks too.
*Ehemm, told you, sneakers fucking
better to keep moving bebeh!* haha.

happy

current mood:

HAPPY TAK BOLEH DESCRIBE.
haha.
dah dah,
kau tepi sikit.
aku tga happy gila babi ni.
:DD
tak dapat nak update belog
sbb happy sangat.
HAHA.

I never really hate you

dear court,
please be nice to me.
as I'm never had a chance to
really rest completely
and for time being I'd say
I HATE YOU
because tomorrow I have
tonne things to deal with.
on the second thought,
I think you're so cute and handsome
charming creature.
same goes with you,
the basket and the ball.
I'd say I'll be stuck up
at my lappie for hours
without doing my assignment.
okay, seriously,
nothing can stop me from loving you.
-..-
meeting you is such a bliss. <3

kiss me goodbye?

I just wondering,
will you leave me after I kiss you?
I just wondering,
will you find another girl after I hold your hand tightly?
I just wondering,
will you disappear in thin air after I kiss you at your cheek?
I just wondering,
will you ever compare me with your previous love
after we spend few hours talking and snuggling to each other?
I just wondering,
would you stare me in the eyes and say that we would always be together?
I just wondering,
will you ever think of set me free after I hug you tightly, and
pretend that we fit in each other?
'promise me' is something that I can't guarantee.
but i surely can TRUST you.