commit suicide

love is a massive huge commitment

that youngsters should not get involved with

- julie abel

a guy I met in a club.

we dance all night

we flirt like there's

no tomorrow

and we kissed

until we drunk.

It was fun.

I had a great time.

- Julie abel

they say visualization is important

I picture myself

at the age of 32 years old,

I'm living in a nice residence.

alone and no one seems to care

and to interfere my single

yet peaceful life.

love life is like a needle pressed into your throat

I don't want my love to be wasted.

I want a loyal person that can keep

me falling for him like 24/7.

It's kindda pathetic. yes I know

and it's hard being a pathetic romantic

kind of person like me.

a devoted and loyal lovers that

you may find them very few nowdays.

it's hard to explain about relation.

love life I might say.

it's funny hearing a 20 years old kid

saying, "I'm sick of this love life,

I wan't to die because I don't have him/her

in my life. life is so unfair."

well kids, it's good you've learn a lil about life.

as grown ups, there will be a lot

of stuffs to deal with. family, financial etc.

me myself too laugh at the youngsters's

love life (primary school kids).

I find it cute seeing them crying because

of their gf/bf. :) awwhh.

that's not the point thou.

what I'm trying to say. I feel numb.

I feel like everyone has to stay away from me.

I feel like true love doesn't exist.

I don't trust anyone anymore by means

everything they said are all lies.

and Im afraid to say there is no love left inside me.

I hate that.

skyscraper

You can take everything I have
You can break everything I am
Like I’m made of glass
Like I’m made of paper
And go on and try to tear me down
I will be rising from the ground
Like a skyscraper

-demi lovato

hurting and being hurt

instead of counting how much you being hurt,

why don't you figure out

how much you've hurt others ?

seriouslyy?

tak kan sampai

nak tanya aku

okay ke tak dgn

kau, kau hantar

messenger.

yang tukang mesej nyaa

pun tak menahan

apasal la kau suruh dia

msg aku? tak boleh tny

sendiri ke kak?

HAHA.

tak ada apa dah la.

benda dah lepas.

malas nak fikir,

fikir pun buat sakit hati je.

LAGI SAKIT HATI SBB

KAU SURUH DIA MESEJ

AKU AFTER 3 YEARS

I DID NOT HEAR

ANY FROM HIM.

hahah. funny lah weh.

killing me

it kills me.

knowing we had enough.

you pushed me away.

I can do nothing.

Hedley - Perfect (Album Version)

Falling a thousand feet per second, you still take me by surprise
I just know we can't be over, I can see it in your eyes
Making every kind of silence, takes a lot to realize
It's worse to finish than to start all over and never let it lie
And as long as I can feel you holding on
I won't fall, even if you said I was wrong

I'm not perfect, but I keep trying
'Cause that's what I said I would do from the start
I'm not alive if I'm lonely, so please don't leave
Was it something I said or just my personality?

Making every kind of silence, it takes a lot to realize
It's worse to finish than to start all over and never let it lie
And as long as I can feel you holding on
I won't fall, even if you said I wrong

I know that I'm not perfect, but I keep trying
'Cause that's what I said I would do from the start
I'm not alive if I'm lonely, so please don't leave
Was it something I said or just my personality?

When you're caught in a lie and you've got nothing to hide
When you've got nowhere to run and you've got nothing inside
It tears right through me, you thought that you knew me
You thought that you knew

I'm not perfect, but I keep trying
'Cause that's what I said I would do from the start
I'm not alive if I'm lonely, so please don't leave
Was it something I said or just my personality?

I'm not perfect, but I keep trying
'Cause that's what I said I would do from the start
I'm not alive if I'm lonely, so please don't leave
Was it something I said or just my, just myself
Just myself, myself, just myself

I'm not perfect, but I keep trying

mamat ni bertatoo ganas nyanyi lagu jiwangg

naissss :B

i like you

tell me if you really like me.

Because if you don't tell me now,

time will swallow all your feelings.

Leaving you with massive regrets.

I will never know until you speak

up your mind :)

if you don't want to lose her,

run to her today,

tell her you like her so much.

have faith in that too

good luck guys

This is not life's a brief candle

when life gives you choices,

you fool her with decision.

when life gives you

plenty of fish to rod,

you make a very best

of it fishing.

When life's telling you

that everything is not enough,

no one seems to be

perfect for you,

tell life that she is wrong.

Tell her that time is

her buddy.

No matter what time will

help you choosing.

run guys

run faster, keep on chasing.

it fascinating.

really :)

missing

I miss you.

still.

haihhh :/

jealous II

It's hard seeing you

with her. I don't know

why I get so jealous.

have faith :)

I told you, he'll find you.

where ever you are.

he'll call, he'll do anything for you

if he's really into you.

for god's sake.

let the guy do the chasing part

as the law of being a girl,

never chase a guy.

he'll run for you :)

it takes maybe a decade

for you to find a perfect guy.

have faith.

mine is there. keep on chasing.

I like that way.

catch me if you can.

-Leonardo DiCaprio

on your birthday man :)

for the guy that always

makes me mad and going nuts

and once quoted this phrase,

"somewhere, somehow there's got to be a soul connection"

A VERY HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU

AND MAY GOD BLESS YOU ALWAYS

HOPE FOR A MORE MISSIONARY YEARS AHEAD.

26 IS OLD ENOUGH THAT YOU SHOULD BE

SETTLED-DOWN BY NOW :B

old :)

I just want to grow old with you.

do you? :)

work place

is it me yang tall

or this picture yang

makes me look taller?

haha.

with them I learn

more about life.

with them I treasure

a lot of great memories.

Life experience

and a lot more.

millions thanks to

kak mel, kak nor, iline, baby and mas.

they just complete a chapter

in my life. thank you :')

i like there.

dockers.

TC.

obsession #3

oh my god. I have this one

addiction

nail polish fetish.

It's an obsession.

:B

noo, I am not

a gedik girl girl.

I just like seeing those

nails shining.

they look hot -.-

policeman

they are both uniform bodies guys.

you should know him better.

run away, hide.

he'll find you if he want to.

action speaks louder than words

when actions speak louder than words,

those emotions and feelings

speak louder than anything in this

universe

fishes :)

They said there's tons of fish in the water.

exactly darling.

if you know what I mean :(

pendek kan smart

kadang kadang aku ni stress jugak.

pergi tengok cermin, muka hensem bukan kepalang

tapi bila ada part sentuh2 jiwa,

mula lah air mata nak mengalir,

jantung hati nak jadi kecut. adoihh.

nak jadi kan cerita, aku ni memang suka rambut pendek

pendek bukan sikit sikit. kalau boleh

pendek nak botak guna mata 2 atau 3 tu kalau potong.

aihh. sebab apa? lagi kecik mak aku dah train

rambut pendek,

"anis, pendekkan je rambut tu rimas mak tgk, kan tgah belajar lagi"

amboi, yang rimas nya aku dia pulak yang overr.

haaa.sampai lah kehari ni aku pendekkan rambut

selalu. get used, omputih kata.

tiba tiba sampai semalam dia berbunyik,

"mak tak nak tgk kau potong rambut lagi, bagi dia panjang dah macam lelaki"

aaa.biasalah,

mulut mmg gatal

suka menjawab,

"mak ada sorg anak lelaki je, tak kan tak nak tambah lagi sorg? :B"

yang jadi tanda tanya.

whyy baru sekarang nak sibuk marah

rambut pendekkk. dia jugak yang ngaja nye.

biarlah. aku pun sedih jugak

terpotong rambut. haha. konon nak belaa.

tapi kalau kau org ada rambut wavy pun

mesti tahu word berat tu apa.

berat oi. berat. haha.

itu yang aku malas nak jaga. -.-

dah besar kut.

minta jadi feminin. ahh.

:|

jealous

we have the same wavelength

and it vibrates almost at the same phase of jealousy.

you should know yourself

so that you'll know me much more better.

we are fated to be soul-mate, handsome.

get used :)

masum 2011

haa ini dia.

siapa lagi hensem?

haha. mesti lah aku kalah.

dia ni player UPM.

national player bsketball.

the only malay.

boleh proud la siapa rasa dia malay.

izzati nur & faeznur. aaaa.

sudah. dua dua hensem kan?

*tgk dua kali, mcm adik beradik.

*pengsann.haha

sorry :(

sorry because you

always have to deal

with my unstable mood

reason

He is the only reason.

ups and downs

there's a time my feeling goes ups and downs.

gerry gerry this is what I wanted to say.

gerry,

listen here. I love you and I like you so much,

but things just been hard lately.

I hope you understand I'm going thru a hard time.

I wish we cud meet earlier. I wish you were mine.

we let things flow on their way. can we?

I understand you want me in your life. so do I.

If and only if it is fated to be that way.

then, i'll be forever yours. if it doesn't,

please, you know I really delightful for having you

in my life. You complete one of my chapter in my life.

Thanks for being there for me.

we'll see how far things can go okay?

life is still a long journey for us (:

tak salah you hoping but don't have a high hope.

I knew how does it feels to hurt and to break your heart

when you give too much hope on someone.

I miss you. we'll be fine this way okay?

let just take it sloww. I hope we can meet someday.

take care. I kindda need a little time to be alone.

maybe a couple of months. or maybe years.

well, 9 years is a long period of time.

where ever on earth if we are fated to be together,

we will be. believe in that. we don't know what

the future holds baby. but we can work things out.

:) you take care. I'll text you later.

fat ass bum bum.

tell me everything

tell me you want nothing from me

tell me you done hurting me

tell me that you're not sorry for what you've done

tell me that I am not perfect

tell me that you hate me

tell me you really enjoy seeing Im hurting

tell me there's no chance for us anymore

tell me that it's okay to hate you

tell me you will leave

tell me you won't contact me anymore

tell me everything that needed to be told.

and yes, I'm doing just fine here in hell.

I hope you're here with me.

would you like to join me?

I believe you will like it to be here. :)

rainy days please :|

I wish that everyday is

rainy day. because I hate

sunny day that it makes me irritated

and uncomfortable with the hot weather.

I even can have ice bath before

going to bed every night.

it chills me to the bone and I like it.

they call it cuddle weather,

while I called it calm weather.

I have a very bad mood swings

that I don't want others to

interfere me when I'm mad.

more likely I easily get mad on

hot sunny days. The moment I buried

myself with silence is the moment

I'm doing a lot of thinking.

my mind clearer on rainy days.

I prefer to enjoy the coolness environment

rather than do a lot of thinking.

I like the smell of the rain. It makes me high.

I hope everyday is rainy day. full stop.

pathetic

I tunggu your call last night.

it sounds pathetic but

that's the truth.

addiction :B

i like to stain the walls using crayon and pencil.

it's an addiction. no not immature

another way searching something fun to do.

seriously, you've got to try.

but make sure you're willing

to clean up the mess after you doing it. got me?

here's mine,

perfection

"Emma: May be we should

establish ground rules.

No lying, no jealousy,

no emergency contact." -

-No Strings Attached

perfect :)

Here By Me - 3 Doors Down (lyrics)

I miss you :'(

future is what it is

I hate planning and plans.
I rather let things
flow on their way.
It's a lot more easier that way.

#life as we know it.
tell me earlier if you're
into me. because I don't
plan for future. it's there.
I just follow :)

who am I darling?

Is it really me who are you looking for?
Can we just stop wasting our time
and be together like forever?
I understand that she is still lingers
in your mind. it is the most
annoying question in life that
I'll never ask.

"who am I in your life?"

this question will only risen
the 2nd thought of yours.
am I right?
:(