HAHAH

click to enlarge :D

gedempol, happy on your day :D

I know I'm sux at colouring.

HAHA.

but that's doesn't matter.

I want to wish you happy birthday.

I love you with all my heart

take care gedempol.

wish you happiness

as your age get older. hihi.

tua dah lah. puluhan.

*HUGSSS*

lebiu much.

dumbass man 2 HAHAHA

this just only makes us feel like a shit. HAHA. who is me? o.O

I used to say crap things when watching this fucking funny show. Dorra, Dorra. HAHA

hahaha, this is sooo real. fuck no sneeze when I'm about to sneeze.kahkahkah

This is so painful i tell you. HAHA. -..- betol

this guy is dumbass HAHA

hello gedempol

hee, <3

a short note for you no.3

dear hisyam baby,

hai. nak cuti mid sem break dah,

I wud like to wish you happy holiday.

oh, this coming holiday,

do please have a good rest.

tidur and makan banyak2 okay.

rest cukup cukup (:

have fun with ur frens.

and most importantly with mama

and other family members okayy?

have fun this CNY.

I miss you so much.

come closer,

*HUGS*

hee. u gedempol sangat.

have fun cuti CNY ni okay

eventhou u sambut deepavali. :PP

haha.

buhbyee. take careee pol pol.

lebiu :DD

with love,

anies

life journey

hai.

betul sangat lah tu.

memang aku bodoh pun (:

sebab tu aku malas

nak bagitahu perihal hal hal tu semua.

tengok tengok engkau yang

menyibuk bagai.

tak pernah aku kesah result

kau berapa. lantak pi hang la.

well for god's sake.

It's normal to hate being compared.

you are a unique human being

and should be judged and

valued for what you are.

daddy

I wish I know

why on earth

you wud go to kuala lumpur,

daddy.

:)

december

I remember.

It was december.

thanks, taylor swift

for reminding me.

Explosions In The Sky- Your Hand In Mine

listen with
your heart.

peluk erat

sini rapat,

PELUK ERAT.

emmpppphhhhh.

jangan bicara apa apa.

ssuuuuhhhhhhhhh.

*peluk erat lagi*

tenang sayang.

I LOVE YOU.

sabar okay?

a short note for you no.2

dear hisyam baby.

I feel like writing.
so many things I want to tell you.
for god's sake, yes lately I do lots of thinking.
but this time around,
I was wasting my time reading about things
on the internet. so I do google things up.
(because of boredom striking me
while I'm not allowed to do
any physical activities like running etc etc. hee)
I searched for malaysian army to Lubnan etc. etc.
and other countries. after reading some posts,
viewing few pics,
I remember what you said past day.
haaa. things are going to be really tough right?
I remember every single word you told me.
about everything even the small small thing.
well, u pun ada so many things to deal with
in your daily life,
tak apa lah kalau u tak ingat (:
saying about tak apa lah, that particular sentence
sumpah bagi impact sgt besar tau.
for an example,
syg, I nak tidur awal malam ni boleh?
boleh (: *tak apa lah, mesti u penat the whole day ni*
syg, I nak rest nanti I free I text you.
okey (: *tak apa lah mmg bee bee I ni busy kan*
syg, I cuti ni maaf lah tak dapat jumpa you.
okay bee bee *tak apa lah, family comes first kan syg.*

&& the least is nothing more than enough
by having you in my life. Itu sahaja.
btw, I miss you so much.
miss you like fat boy miss eating chocolate
when doc said no more sweet food for him.
hee.
I love you with all my heart.
erm, can I scream out loud so the entire
world cud hear me baby? hihi

with love,
anies

manaa pergi? :O

macam ni lah,
tiba tiba aku scroll down satu belog ni.
sumpah aku rindu owner blog ni.
haha. tak gay lah kut.
kalau cik sedang membaca post ni,
tolong faham saya rindu awak.
ceh, ayat tak nak geli geli pulak.
kahkahkah.

madihah md saleh.
ada siapa siapa kenal dia? :D
she used to be to best baller and currently an expert rower.

tagline: we are bestfriend. *that was one particular long time ago*
aku tak ada gambar dengan dia nak show off. haha

a short note for you

dear hisyam baby.

so you've seen all my fears.
you know all my weakness.
for me I am what I am.
accept me for who I am.
there's a part of me is worth keeping.
I promise you.
we spend approximately
less than thirty minutes
in our daily twenty four hours.
but that doesn't change
a damn thing my love for you.
me too, loving you for what you are.
we have our own life,
fortunately we met in the middle of our
life journey.
I love you so much.
truly I am.
&& because how understanding we cud be.
like an island that filled with flowers.
you are the brightest star above me.
I love you hisyam,

with love,
anies

bee bee

yes, i miss this part.

lebiu much. heee

<3

cakap lah banyak banyak

tolong bagi aku sober. nak menulis.

babi babi babi.

kalau bab mencarut mulut kau memang ringan kan?

sial betul. cakap benda baik, susah pulak.

hari ini 24th january hari paling malang.

kenapa. sebab seharian kepala aku berat macam

batu bertan tan berat dia. bodoh betul lah.

apa yang kau fikir sangat weh?

benda semua kecik boleh settle.

babi la kau tak tahu apa aku rasa

cakap pakai air liur senang lah kan.

haa. memang. cakap satu pun tak ada orang faham.

nasib ada pol kalau tak semua things falling apart.

semua jatuh menimpa nimpaa.

kalau kau boleh duduk sebelah aku peluk aku erat

lagi buat aku tenang barangkali.

tadi aku pergi borak borek.

dalam hidup ni aku belajar. bukan aku seorang je

yang ada masalah. orang lain pun ada samaa.

mereka punya lagi fucked up barangkali.

and tak ada org boleh judge, cakap lah kau faham

kau rasa benda samaa. tapi kau tak

sebenarnya. dia seorg yang rasa apa dia rasa.

yang rasa dunia ni nak terbalik

yang rasa langit tu tinggi rendah

nak terhempas ke bumi. tak ada orang faham

exact situation yang kau alami.

percaya lah cakap aku.

cakap kau susah nak tinggal kan orang kau sayang

aku ckp, alah, blah je la kan ramai orang lain boleh buat kau happy.

aku tak rasa, senang lah aku cakap.

cakap kau dah terlanjur sampai bunting,

aku cakap alah things happened. tak ada apa boleh buat.

aku tak rasa, tinggal rasa palat dalam diri kau.

cakap kau ada masalah dengan mak bapak,

bapak kau ada betina lain,

aku cakap, alah biasa lah tu, kau chill je.

aku tak rasa macam mana hilang bapak.

cakap kau ada masalah dengan studies satu apa pun tak faham,

aku cakap alah slow2 je, nnt boleh punyaa.

aku tak faham yang kau dah berusaha keras nak berjayaa.

cakap kau injured, fucked up laa nak sports lagi,

aku cakap, alah, sports je, tak ada apa pun, studies lagi penting.

semua aku tak faham. tak ada siapa faham

kondisi kau kecuali kau. hanya kau yang rasa

apa yang kau rasa.

p/s: bee bee, i feel like hugging you tightly.

thanks for being there for me last nite <3

sigh~

sakit

hantuk kepala ke dinding

hentak kotak fikiran sekuat nya

biarkan semua hilang.

pol pol

oh. bee bee.

IMY badly.

mere, i need

a HUGGIE.

sighh

a useless weekend

going back home on weekend

tiring.

agak boleh baik kaki.

tapi useless.

semua pun hopeless.

tension lah macam ini.

what keep me comfort is my family.

haa. itu sahaja.

i feel like

tak nak balik college.

fak laa. homesick lagi. heh

:(

apple of my eye

Holy molly me oh my you're the apple of my eye.

kalau bahagia yang engkau cari

"Ahh. Buat semak lah fikir kan pasal kau. Aku pening kepala. Mana nak layan yang ada depan mata, mana nak kesah pasal study. Boleh tak, aku tak nak kau kacau aku. bingit lah!,"

bentak Abbey dalam fikirannya.

"Hello, Ferdy, I serious nak break dgn you. sumpah. I dah tak tahan. I rasa kita makin hari makin jauh. dengan you nya i susah nak contact. nak jumpa apa tah lagi, bayang bayang pun tak pernah muncul, I dah tak sanggup nak teruskan relation kita ni. I nak semua ni stop sampai sini okay?"

click.

Telefon genggam dimatikan. Ferdy tepaku sambil berfikir apa salah dirinya sendiri sampai diperlaku sebegitu. cukup banyak dia berkorban buat Abbey. Abbey tak pernah rasa puas dengan apa yang dia dapat. Apa yang dia mahu keseronokan di depan mata serta kawan kawan. Mungkin Abbey belum cukup matang fikir Ferdy. Dia masih tak kenal dunia, masih belum puas berseronok, biarkan sahaja dia, mungkin itu jalan yang terbaik buat dia. Ferdy akur, pasrah.

Sehari dua Ferdy mampu menahan rindu yang dipendam. Masa terus berlalu, Ferdy sering mencuba berbaik dengan memberi pesanan ringkas buat Abbey. Namun, Abbey tak pernah balas. Cukup banyak pesanan ringkas yang di terima Abbey. Panggilan telefon pun mahu berpuluh dalam seminggu Ferdy mencuba nasib. Manalah tahu Abbey bertukar fikiran mahu menerima Ferdy semula dalam hidupnya. Ferdy tidak mudah mengaku kalah, berputus asa.

Mungkin perbuatan Ferdy ini bodoh. Perempuan itu tak mahu kan dia. Apa yang dia tunggu lagi? Pergi sahaja keluar sana cari perempuan lain. Bukannya dunia ni kecil. Banyak lagi perempuan yang mampu buat Ferdy tersenyum.

Tapi semuanya tak semudah itu, hati nya dicuri oleh Abbey, dia tak akan pernah lupakan Abbey dengan apa kenangan manis selama bersama Abbey. Dan bagi Ferdy, Abbey sahaja lah yang betul betul pernah membuka pintu hatinya untuk berkasih.

"hey babe, you tak contact boyfriend you yang dulu you tinggal kan tu ke? you ni jahat sangat dumb a guy yang tak ada salah apa dengan you, you kene ingat karma tu real babe,"

Kelly menegur Abbey

"hey, kalau kau nak tahu, aku mmg dah tak ada perasaan langsung dekat dia, kalau boleh aku nak lupakan dia terus. kau tengoklah telefon aku ni, berjuta mesej dia hantar, setiap hari dia call, aku naik fed up tau, kalau kau jumpa dia, tolong bagitahu yang aku dah tak interested dengan dia lagi okay? get away from my life! pfft"

Abbey bersuara lantang.

Abbey kini bahagia bermain kasih dengan jejaka di kampus nya. Perihal Ferdy tak ada lagi dia ambil kisah. Di kampus semua sedang asyik memperkata tentang Abbey, kononnya Abbey dan pasangannya lah pasangan paling hangat bercinta pada masa itu. Si kacak dan si cantik. Sama padan sama lawa. Drama org berkasih.

Tiga bulan berlalu,

"babe, I tension gilaa u tahu. That guy seriously ada betina lain ! I tak tahu why on earth dia boleh cakap dia sekarang happy dgn perempuan lain. dia ingat I ni apa? suka suka je nak main main kan I? hah? fucked up laa. I seriously tak tahu nak buat apaa ni babe, Eric ni macam bodoh laa. I dah buat apa semua untuk diaa, I dah be the best for him, we even plan to live together, what the hell happened? who is that bitch yang berani kacau Eric i ni babeee?"

Abbey mengadu pada Kelly.

"Sabar lah sayang, hmm. I tak tahu nak cakap macam mana, tapi I rasa dia mmg dah tak ada hati dekat you. tengok lah dah sebulan dia tak layan you, he is a guy, bila dia senyap makna nya dia dah tak nak kita bey, you kene accept tu, don't cry, things happened sayang. you nak fight for him lagi ke babe?"

soal Kelly.

"I tak boleh fikir. I dah sakit hati. Every day I sleep with tears babe. I couldn't help it anymoree. I had enough. Biarlah dia, I think I'm going to let him go. Bukan ke kalau kita sayang someone, kita nak tgk dia happy kan? Biarlah babe dia happy dengan perempuan lain. I rasa I ni tak perfect untuk dia, perempuan tu lagi lawa, lagi sempurnaa. I fed up dah babe. I nak lepaskan Eric"

kata kata Abbey diselangi sedu tangis.

Hidup Abbey kini sunyi. bertambah dengan Eric yang menunjuk nunjuk kekasih hati baru nya. Buat Abbey lagi meluat. Namun, rakan rakan sekeliling selalu beri Abbey semangat untuk teruskan hidup tanpa Eric. Abbey banyak berubah, dia sudah mula berjinak dengan rokok dan sering bersama teman teman ke kelab malam. Abbey tidak lagi percayakan lelaki, malah setiap lelaki yang ingin mendekati pasti Abbey sakiti mereka pada akhirnya. Berjuta alasan diberi, tidak bersedia untuk berkasih lah, masih ingin hidup bebas tanpa kongkongan lah, berminat hanya menjadi part time lover atau lebih famous dikenali dengan scandal lah. Namun itu semua hanya alasan, Abbey patah hati pada Eric, dia benci apa yang di perlaku Eric, dia tak akan mudah percaya pada lelaki kali ini.

Tujuh bulan lebih berlalu, Abbey bukan lah sekuat di luar. Dia mungkin lantang pada percakapan tapi lembut di dalam. Abbey tutup pandangan orang lain sebegitu. Dia tak mahu di gelar perempuan lemah, tak mahu diperalat lelaki durjana. Tiada siapa tahu setiap malam hidupnya di isi air mata dan kesedihan. Bermalam dia tidur bertemankan air mata. rindu pada kehidupan berkasih. kata org kasih itu umpama soul feeding. kalau ada, hidup lagi indah, kalau tiada, hidup itu seakan dull.

Suatu hari, di laman sosial Ferdy menegur Abbey. Abbey terkejut dan tidak menyangka Ferdy yang disakitinya dulu menegurnya. Tepat pada hari lahir Abbey. Abbey sungguh gembira, tetapi ego dalam dirinya. Dia berbual biasa sahaja dengan Ferdy. Hanya tuhan sahaja yang tahu betapa gembiranya Abbey bila Ferdy menegurnya. Tapi saat itu, Abbey yakin Ferdy sudah ada pengganti dirinya. Setahun lebih dia tinggalkan Ferdy, pasti Ferdy punya kekasih hati sekarang,fikir Abbey.

Tidak lama selepas itu, Abbey diterima menyambung pelajaran nya di satu perkampungan kecil. meneruskan pengajiannya di tahap lebih tinggi. Hampir seminggu dia berada di sana semua nya baik baik sahaja. kawasan perkampungan yang tenang ditambah persekitaran pelajar yang baik baik belaka, Abbey jadi tenang. Dia berazam menumpukan sepenuh fokusnya pada pelajaran dan kokorikulum. Persekitaran kampus yang cukup hebat. Semuanya cukup sempuran bagi Abbey.

Namun, tidak ada apa yang boleh dijangka kecuali, suatu hari Abbey menceritkan tentang mimpi aneh yang dialaminya pada rakan kampusnya, Julie.

" awak, malam tadi saya mimpi Ferdy lah. pelik sangat mimpi saya. awak tahu, saya mimpi pada saat saya nak di ijab kabul kan, saya nampak jelas Ferdy duduk di daun pintu rumah saya sambil menangis teresak-esak, saya bingunglah. kenapa mimpi saya pelik macam ni ?"

Tanpa befikir panjang keesokan harinya, Abbey cuba membuat panggilan kepada Ferdy, dan seperkara lagi tentang Abbey, dia tidak pernah padam talian telefon Ferdy biarpun Abbey sudah berbelas kali menukar talian telefon genggamnya. Ferdy tidak menjawab. Abbey kesal. Tindakan nya sia sia. Dia mencuba buat kali kedua. Dan seterusnya. Ferdy masih lagi tidak menjawab.

Abbey anggap itu hanya mainan tidur.

"biarlah, mungkin Ferdy tak ada hati dengan aku lagi," keluh Abbey dibenaknya.

truut..truuut...truut..

nama Ferdy jelas terpampang di kaca telefon bimbit Abbey. Abbey bahagia, sedikit gementar untuk menjawab panggilan tersebut.

"Hey, siapa ni? Aku tak ada nombor telefon engkau lah !" tegas Ferdy.

"Ferdy, ni I lah, Abbey" jelas Abbey tenang.

"Oh, maaf lah, aku tak save nombor telefon engkau," Ferdy terus berkata.

saat itu. Abbey tidak tahu apa yang harus dia ungkap kan, talian tergantung buat seketika. Kira kira tiga minit tanpa bersuara.

"Ferdy, I rindu you," Abbey bersuara lemah.

Suasana bisu.

"I rindu you jugak, Abbey," bicara Ferdy dengan suara dalam kebingungan.

"tapi maaflah, I sedang busy ni. boleh kita mesej?" soal Ferdy

"okay okay, kita mesej sahaja," Abbey menyambung.

dalam mesej mereka, Abbey meminta maaf atas segala perlakuannya yang lalu, setahun yang lalu buat Ferdy terluka. Abbey menyesali segala perbuatan dia. Abbey tidak tahu apa yang patut dia lakukan. Dia merindui Ferdy. Ferdy tidak pernah menyakiti hatinya. Ferdy malah sanggup memaafkan Abbey. Ferdy seorang yang berhati mulia. Ferdy hanya sabar menunggu Abbey kerana dia yakin suatu masa Abbey pasti pulang ke pangkuannya. Abbey kini milik Ferdy. Penantian Ferdy selama ini bermakna dengan kepulangan Abbey. Abbey merasakan hubungan dia bersama Eric cukup mengajarnya tentang hukum karma.

Satu nota bagi Ferdy daripada Abbey,

"yes I went away.

but it doesn't mean that I forgetting you.

I came back.

I was lost. I was wrong.

sorry for letting you down past year.

and yes,

sorry doesn't mean a thing.

so, I guess if sorry not enough for you,

I'll tied you in my heart. FOREVER."

ringan kapas terbang

eh, kau mahu terbang ke mana?

sabar lah. tunggu aku.

aku masih tak boleh hidup sendiri.

terbang sendiri hidup tanpa kau.

kau teruk lah, pergi dahulu.

aku sedih sangat kau tinggal aku.

macam mana nak hidup tanpa kau?

macam mana nak terbang tanpa kau?

sayap aku patah, kau robek robek

bilaa kau terbang tinggal aku sini.

aku tak kuat.aku lemah.

tak ada kau di sisi buat aku rasa nak mati.

aku merayu jangan pergi dahulu.

juta kali aku beritahu,

tapi kau degil jugak. kau nak pergi.

pergi lah. bagi kau cari bahagia lain

yang hakiki yang mampu buat

kau tersenyum puas.

dah itu yang dia mahu

sangat fucked up kalau kau sahaja

yang ber-effort untuk orang lain.

sia sia.

buang masa tahu.

dia tak menghargai kau.

kau menagih nagih kasih.

tinggal kan semua kenangan kau dengan dia

.semuaaa.

cakap senang kan. buat payah.

maaf.semua manusia mmg begitu.

charming. yes you are

hey my charming soldier,

listen up.

I want to dare you to do something,

If you really are a true man,

why don't you come over here

kidnap me,

and take me away? :D

pleash pleash pleash.

just once. take me with you.

i miss u badly lah pol pol gedempooool.

hee.

who needs prince charming when you're in love with a soldier?

haaaaa.jawab jawab. haha :PP

hear me out

aku mintak bila aku sedar dari tidur

aku nak semua berubah

semua jadi indah

semua jadi okay okay sahaja.

tolong lah. aku merayu sangat ni.

:(

ahh fak betul lah

aku sakit kepala la.

sakit gila.

dalam state kau tak tahu kau fikir apa

tapi banyak benda kau sedang fikir.

babi rasa mcm nak shut down sekejap.

mental break down.

please la weh. fucked up gilaa.

pernah rasa mcm ni tak?

aku rasa dull rasa kosong rasa plain

rasa numb rasa tak ada rasa apa apa

tapi rimas dengan semua benda yang aku rasa

amik, padan muka

tak faham aku cakap apa.

banjingan la feelings ni.

sana sikit boleh tak?

aku nak state hari tu, aku happy gilaa.

mata berat, kepala berdenyut,

mengantuk tapi tak boleh tidur.

hahaha. anjeng betul.

sigh~

she's loser

She smoke cigar,

she dance hard clubbing,

she don't do drugs

she won't drink alcohol

she afraid of sex.

she is a completely loser.

haha.

people can judge

but they wouldn't know

the truth.

and we are special

we are what we are.

everyone has their own perspective

we should respect others :D

please switch it on

have you ever feeling blues?

no mood. plain numb feel nothing?

because feelings are abstract

I feel like naked and turn the radio up loud

sigh. someone might switch off my feelings.

bla bla bla,

I miss bee bee badly (:

I hate you.

You don't know my feelings.

Don't pretend to know

everything about me.

It's been 2 years.

You are a liar.

I hate you.

Just tell me, it is all-right.

There is nothing wrong there,

please. I'm begging :(

you can do nothing doc.

nothing.

Linda Ronstadt ft. Aaron Neville - I Don't Know Much [with lyrics]

s.alam it is

happy birthday esah.

it was a blast.

meeting old friends and making new one

is always blissful.

here are some pics,

esah, taty, liniey, and yana (:

whoa.ramai kan? best sgt :)

thanks to baby taty

nini kacak bergaya

and edad. and semua lah.

will be missing u guys.

thanks again a lot :D

kata kata aluan. heh.

hah. padan muka.

seronok tgk muka cuak sbb kene tipu

dapat teddy gemok. haha.

tak apa lah, tipu for happiness. ada ke?

haha.

kalau u ckp, dah 20 tahun hidup, ini saat paling best

I nak cakap yang selama I ada bee bee,

I am so happy u tahu? (:

tak ada apa boleh cakap boleh ucap.

semua tebal mcm buku teks dalam hati.

love that can't be described

I miss you badly.

miss you a lot. hmm.

tak apa lah. we were always meant to be together god's will (:

apa pun. I am still happy

and tak expect langsung in any time on earth

i would come and visit you.

hmmm. do you know how much u mean to me?

I would run a thousand miles just to see ur face.

I would swim thru ocean just to be with you.

I would scarifies everything just for you.

I love you so much.

thanks for simply being there, love.

biar apa kau nak kata

hello dunia.

dalam hidup ini aku bukan ada satu tuju.

aku bukan ada satu arah,

aku bukan ada satu matlamat,

hidup aku pelbagai.

pelbagai bagai. aku pasti semua org pun sama?

cuma tak ada orang yang faham betul

apa kau rasa dalam hati kau itu.

pernah dulu aku cakap kan

suara hati tu kalau di dengarkan, boleh bawak bencana.

cerita soal pelajaran, oh banyak lagi topik yang aku harus mahir.

cerita soal cinta, aku ada satu orang cinta hati sahaja.

cerita soal ghairah, itu bola dan keranjang mampu buat aku ghairah.

bila kau cerita pasal masa aku,

oh, silap besar bhai,

sebab aku tahu mana satu yang utama.

aku bukan duduk goyang kaki 24jam 7hari satu minggu

melangok tunggu mesej dan call dari cinta hati.

aku ada hidup lain. pasti juga dia.

aku bukan setiap minggu boleh berjumpa cinta hati,

telekomunikasi buat kami dekat.

berbulan sekali pun jarang.

tapi itu semua bukan alasan untuk bersama.

maaf lah, ada benda yang lebih penting.

dua per tiga bahagian hati aku dia dah empunya.

aku tak kisah apa sudah,

kami memang satu hati. tak ada apa boleh pisah.

gegar lah kuat mana, tiup lah kencang mana.

izinDia, berpegang lah teguh kami.

biar apa semua nak kata, aku bercakap lebat,

aku berbual rancak, sebab semua nya

aku sahaja yang rasa. baik buruk sudah akan. semua.

tak ada org yang lebih tahu selain Dia maha Pencipta.

(:

too close

I remember yesteryear

when I was about to make that shot

when I was about to hear the crowd calling my name

when I was about to dunk that ball in the net

when I was about to sweat all those pain

but I FAILED

why?

because of my injury at me ankle

It hurts me badly

It pulls all my confident

It tear me apart like a child crying when she lost her mom

I hate that feelings.

deep inside I still want to give my best shot

to struggle more

to do what I haven't done.

I need you. I need you badly.

raise me up, just raise me up.

ankle, please be nice,

I need you, seriously

to run and to do just everything,

be strong okay? I love you as much as I love my other organs.

avril- i will be

There’s nothing I could say to you
Nothing I could ever do to make you see
What you mean to me
All the pain the tears I cried
Still you never said goodbye and now I know how far you’d go
I know I let you down but it's not like that now
This time I’ll never let you go

I will be all that you want and get myself together
Cause you keep me from falling apart
All my life I’ll be with you forever
To get you through the day and make everything OK

I thought that I had everything I didn’t know what life could bring
But now I see honestly
You're the one thing I got right
The only one I let inside
Now I can breathe 'cause you're here with me
And if I let you down I’ll turn it all around
Cause I would never let you go

I will be all that you want and get myself together
Cause you keep me from falling apart
All my life I’ll be with you forever
To get you through the day and make everything OK

Cause with out you I can’t sleep
I’m not gonna ever ever let you leave
You’re all I got
You’re all I want
Yeah
And without you I don’t know what I’d do
I could never ever live a day with out you
Hear with me do you see you're all I need

And I will be all that you want and get myself together
Cause you keep me from falling apart
All my life (my life) I will be with you forever
To get you through the day and make everything OK

I will be (I’ll be) all that you want and get myself together
Cause you keep me from falling apart
And all my life you know I will be with you forever
To get you through the day and make everything OK

he lost his virginity at early age

My dad lost his virginity when he was
18. before marriage.
without wearing any protection,
the woman he lost his virgin with got pregnant.
That is my step-brother, Kelvin.
Kalvin and I are very close.
sharing stuffs and all.
I never met Kelvin's mom obviously,
when she last disappeared after dad married my mom.
that what they've said.
I don't even care bout her.
I want to share my story here, as all of you know,
I'm a big grownup teenage, I am currently 20.
I can do anything I like.
do you know that,
knowing my dad lost his virgin at the early age
makes me really want to lost mine too.
I want to know how does it feels like
to lost my virginity at this very young age.

I had conversations with Kelvin.
I once asked him,
when did he lost his virginity.
do you know what he said?
he said he really don't want to be like
his dad and his mom.
Daddy past ways have influenced Kelvin
by learning how to protect himself
from having a child at the early age
from happening & also learn to wait
because at the end it's for a good reason.

people always said that
the sensation is worth it
if you save ur virginity
until marriage.
which on the second thought;
What happens when on the wedding night
and subsequent nights if you
realize your sexual tastes
are different with your mates?
does that shows that sex is vital?
From a purely practical perspective,
it also means that having lost one's virginity,
one can then go on to have more sex
and refine one's technique.

allright I'm giving reasons
why to have sex in early age.
Kelvin never seems to agree with me.
he said,
there are three things in life
that is really not worth it
to do or even try.
those three things are very addictive
you can easily get addicted with it.
first is alcohol,
next come drugs and third is sex.
Honestly, I have a pretty old fashioned mind
for me virginity is something
that really need to keep.
but teenage is teenage
when we are seriously
like to do reckless thingy.
we feel like trying everything
we feel like drinking until we got wasted
we feel like fucking hard
we feel like taking all those type of drugs.

teenage.
what ever we do we need
to have boundaries.
have faith.
my late mom taught me
that in life, there are two things,
the good and the bad
the past and the present.
because we choose what we want to do.

Matthew

friends are meant to last

had a great time

wish to spend

more time with them.

:D thanks for the day.

<3

she's missing pol

because

we always belong to you and me.

thanks for simply being there.

words can't describe what we feel.

having you is more than enough.

heart you gedempol.

strictly for self entertainment.

weekday training will start at 5.30pm
weekend training will start at 8.30am

Monday - long run start at Gym KTF/ KTHO bus stop + staircase training
Tuesday-rest
Wednesday- fartlek at padang hoki, night- cycling at Impian Emas
Thursday-Strength training at Gym KTF + staircase training
Friday- Easy run (bustop KTHO)
Saturday-Morning Stadium Larkin training
Sunday-Morning-Long and easy cycling + competition

court event will be updated soon.
time to bleed, cry and win soon.
god's will. amen.

you are so funny.

hello bitch,

how does it feels like to have the one

you love fucking far away from you?

how does it feels like huh?

does it fun?

you don't have ur

own philosophy?

awwwww, it's okay

it is always meant to be shared.

haha.

what fucking ever lah biatch.

I don't care a shit.

new semester

new semester.

okay, the first two days was tiring.

but I miss these feelings.

you feel a bit uneasy with your body,

starting to work hard,

sitting up straight in class.

evening fill up with physical training.

what a blessed.

I feel a bit lighter :D

new sem new resolution.

everything new.

if you ask me my azam tahun baru,

I'd say live life to the fullest do anything whole heartedly.

:)

a wonderful beginning of the year

I don't really want any darling carry or kissing hardly.

what I really want most is you right here beside me.

I promise myself not to leave you.

god's will baby. god's will.

Thanks for showed up this beginning of 2011.

I had the most wonderful time with you.

you are the greatest thing that ever happens to me.

thanks a lot. Heart you love.

jb is not so bad rite?

HAHA. charming guy,

I miss you so much bee bee