so long 2011

2011

given me lots of things

to be remembered to be learned

I lost my love life

I met new people

I am better than past years.really.

I spent less time with maryam

tiah and farhah. I'll make it up later ok guys?

I miss you guys thou.

and the most current thing

that I am totally going to share here

is I feel belonging here with my new frens.

they are awesome.

amie,dila,nad,dell and ella.

gosh I shud be spending more time

with you guys where I can sense

a family in all of you.

and least, I fall in love again.

bobo thanks for giving me chance

to know a kind hearted guy like you.

diary closed.

so long 2011

we meet 2012 real soon

lots of love,

benny, anis, faez

If and only if

If I were everyone

around me.

not myself I would be

jealous much of us.

how perfect we are

together. you and me

and let's forget the world.

kiss bo

:(

"It's like you're screaming, and no one can hear.

You almost feel ashamed,

that someone could be that important -

that without them, you feel like nothing.

No one will ever understand how much it hurts.

You feel hopeless; like nothing can save you.

And when it's over, and it's gone,

you almost wish that you could have

all that bad stuff back -

so that you could have the good."

-aggy

syer wehh

syer,

I am

truly sorry :(

you are my drugs

baby, be my whiskey

be my red wine

be my tequila

be forever mine

because I need cocaine

I need morphine

and I need you

If it's true you are being together.

erghh.

this is weird.

well you guys do

the just want to know what's

happening with your ex's current life.

everyone did.

but if this is real. I mean

what you guys are heading is

towards love that eternity,

I like to wish good luck

and take care of each other.

I can't give you what she can,

I am so sorry that I wasn't perfect

or am. if you are reading this,

hisyam.

don't break her heart because

she is a girl and she is very precious.

I don't want to say much.

I wish the best for you.

addiction

I just cut my own hair.

I haven't do this thingy since

year 1995.

I was so obsessed with

cutting my own hair when

I was a kid.a little.

I just did it and it feels

a lot more relieved than killing

your own-self. really.

First Heartbreak

I suppose it’s like—It’s mourning, isn’t it?

As if, like, someone has died,

because you’re so invested in something

that that part of yourself is dying,

you know? It’s like, gut-wrenching,

And then you’ve got to kind of—I suppose

it’s like yin and yang, you know?

And then you—You have to try and feel

whole yourself again…

because when you’re in a relationship

you are, like, quite enmeshed in a way.

-Agyness Deyn

pictures of us are more perfecto

Stroll in the park was

the best part of all.

I shud bring even larger picnic mat

so we can fit cuddling and lie down

under the open skies.

I wish to freeze the time

and stop the world

so that we can be forever

on that particular moment.

P/s: screww it for the rain. they envy much of us. :B

we cud have something more sweeter than this.

see, you showed me that dreams are real.

I love you. really.

-.-

I wish I could kill myself

see I'm screwing myself.

I'm gonna kill myself

if I let this stupid things

happen again in my life.

I have to seriously

learn from mistake.

fuck you idiot benny.

I prefer killing my own-self

REALLY

I trust you most

fuck. by all means. I'm really

don't want to cause you any trouble

or messing with your life.

but I just did. I am pathetically

sorry. I know it's not enough.

I really do sorry.

syer he is

see that fucking

irritating face he made?

haha. kunun habis cute

la tueww -.-' yucks. haha

this is the one and only

guy that can stand

hearing all my nags and

blabbering and cursing

and we do sembang

kote together.

do you know how does

it feels like to have such

a great friend you trusted

most and sharing a lot

of things together?

it feels awesomee.

:B

p/s: thanks for everything.

lama dah aku nak buat post pasal kau

syer, cume tak nenyempat. haha.

more or less I am happy to have you around (:

kau ubah persepsi. kau fikir kau hebat?

aku menyokong penuh nilai murni

berpoligami. tapi tidak pada isu berbangkit

mengatakan bahawa berpoligami

mewajibkan isteri mentaati suami

sepenuh hati sehingga menghalalkan

'group sex' atau memberi satu tag line

bahawa layanan yang di berikan

dalam hal hal mengenai sex haruslah

menjadi lebih baik daripada

'first class prostitute'

tak ada perkataan berhemah lain

yang boleh diganti kepada prostitute

tersebut?

apa erti prostitute?

Prostitution is the act or practice of providing sexual services to another person in return for payment.

-sumber, http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Prostitution

terlalu hina letak nya kedudukan

seorang isteri sehingga boleh digelar

seorang prostitute.

poligami pada dasarnya

disegani oleh agama lain

kerana pembahagian hak

dan sifat bertanggung jawab

yang adil lagi saksama boleh

dipikul dan ditanggung oleh seorang

suami. apabila group sex menjadi

satu trend, pada pandangan individualistik

ia tidak ubah seperti perlakuan

haiwan atau binatang.

adakah mungkin isteri isteri tersebut

melakukan sex terlalu

OBEDIENT kepada suami

dibayar dan seterusnya digelar

prostitute?

mungkin pada konteks sipulan

in return for payment itu

adalah nafkah yang diberikan

tapi isteri tidak perlu

menjadi objek seks kepada suami.

buruk benar bunyinya. sungguh.

mungkin kau nampak

perkataan prostitute

itu suatu yang cool disebut

atau di beri contoh

namun, tidak perlu ia dicanang

sehingga memberi persepsi buruk

tentang hidup berpoligami.

kau letak martabat perempuan

serendah pelacur,

kau racuni fikiran perempuan

untuk taat sepenuh hati kepada suami,

kau berikan gambaran bahawa

group sex itu menyeronokkan.

mana pergi maruah ?

lebih baik kau hidup tidak beragama

daripada memalukan agama kau sendiri.

p/s: iya masing masing punya fikiran tafsiran.

aku persoalkan perkara ini pucuk pangkalnya

mengingatkan diri sendiri. serta kau yang

lebih daripada jauh tergelincir dari landasan.

Drake - Take Care ft. Rihanna LYRICS

awesomeness

love

When moonlight crawls along the street

Chasing away the summer heat

Footsteps outside somewhere below

The world revolves I've let it go

We build our church above the street

We practice love between these sheets

The candy sweetness scent of you

It bathes my skin I'm stained in you

And all I have to do is hold you

There's a racing within my heart

And I am barely touching you

Turn the lights down low

Take it off

Let me show

My love for you

Insatiable

Turn me on

Never stop

Wanna taste every drop

My love for you

Insatiable

The moonlight plays upon your skin

A kiss that lingers takes me in

I fall asleep inside of you

There are no words

There's only truth

Breathe in, breathe out

There is no sound

We move together up and down

We levitate our bodies soar

Our feet don't even touch the floor

But nobody knows you like I do

'Cause the world they don't understand

That I grow stronger in your hands

Turn the lights down low

Take it off

Let me show

My love for you

Insatiable

Turn me on

Never stop

Wanna taste every drop

My love for you

Insatiable

We never sleep we're always holdin' hands

Kissin' for hours talkin' makin' plans

I feel like im better man

Just being in the same room

We never sleep there's just so much to do

So much to say

Can't close my eyes when I'm with you

Insatiable the way I'm loving you

Turn the lights down low

Take it off

Let me show

My love for you

Insatiable

Turn me on

Never stop

Wanna taste every drop

My love for you

Insatiable

Thanks much.

It's hard not to care

oh, I am never perfect for anyone.

I am broke. really

after all,

mending a broken heart

is not an easy thing to do.

And I bet you are just fine

I missed the night

we were all alone

you took my hand and

danced with me.

I remember you sang

me those lullabies

the sweetest thing you ever done.

I remember you hug me

endlessly until the morning light.

I can still feel you here with me.

trust me,

you'll never find someone

who can love you right.

I thought we could be together

forever ):

how does it feels

like to give all your heart

and soul to someone?

sigh.

they won't do the same.

trust me. really.

love only brings

you heartache.

mati

ini bukan pertama kali

aku rasa ingin mati.

sudah beberapa kali

sungguh ):

sedan

ada masa bila

kau rasa langit itu

rebah jatuh atas kau

bila angin kencang goyang

jasad kau bilamana

perasaan kau kucar kacir

bila kau rasa hendak hentak

benak fikiran hayun

perasaan hingga pecah berderai.

perasaan saat kau ingin

sendiri perasaan rimas

keadaan sekeliling.

hendak di maki hendak menghamun

perasaan yang mana kau

sendiri tidak dapat kawal

kau sendiri tidak tahu pucuk

pangkalnya. pukimak.

semua serba salah. semua hilang arah.

semua serba tidak kena.

ehh penat lah macam ni.

dalam fikiran beribu kali

terjun dari curam tinggi

bunuh diri, kan lebih mudah?

hati remuk senak perut

diri rasa sendiri walau

semua ada di sisi. aku penat.

penat fikir menerawang

hidup tak tenang.

dugaan melimpah. mana diri kau

yang kuat? mana diri kau yang

gagah? biarkan aku sendiri.

memutar masa membelit ilusi

megajar realiti. pergi dari sini

hentikan pandangan kejimu.

biarkan aku sendiri meratap

jasad tidak berjiwa.

take me there.

shoot Im changing my mind

instead of going to

venice italy i wud rather

die to go to rio de jenairo brazil

this place is beyond awesomee

i tell you. brazil, <3

summer

hello spring,

I'm summer.

It was very

nice to meet you.

how to survive in exam.

being a student is always about

achieving good grades.

about what you have studied

and passing all your exam

with flying colors.

all you have to do is to be a hardworking

biatch and burn the midnight oil.

fuck study, when you can cheat in exam or test.

some call it teamwork and whatsoever.

but to see it in another point of view,

I call it how to survive your life.

Life has has to be either exciting or boring.

you choose.

and in exam the adrenaline rushes in your blood

is nothing beats nightmares.

life is also an examination. a test. or a quiz.

p/s: mesti best kalau hidup ini math.semua dah ada formula

ikut dan tak perlu pening fikir dan baca. ohyeah.

tak jugak, boring mungkin.

kalau mcm ni jawab exam dan betul i might ace all my exams .___.

I don't hold future

clueless.

talk about future like we had any clue

URGENT !

This is a post about someone I did trust

once was my primary school friend

and he turned out to be a very good cheater

what he did to me was he eventually did not refund my money.

an amount of money (hundreds) not to be mentioned

and the gadget (bb bold 2) that I ordered since

september 11th 2011 the day I deposited the money

and up till now I neither receive any item nor refund.

for whoever knows this guy please do whatever in your power to

have either my money back or the item.

or the LEAST YOU CAN DO IS

DON'T TRUST THIS GUY.

his: http://www.facebook.com/pages/Joe-Farizal/196113577098382

this guy apparently owns his own recording label. wtv.

http://www.facebook.com/pages/Joe-Farizal/196113577098382?sk=info

I don't fucking care if you use my money to feed your family.

you know the limit buddy.

kalau best guna duit haram untuk jadikan kau berjaya tu buat lah :)

to be cheated and trusting issue are both a must in life.

but this guy has just test my patient.

p/s: letak diri kau dalam situasi orang.

are you looking for perfection? :)

whatever good for you

might as well good for me too.

I see you having a great life,

that's ghreat. take care there,

may you find what you looking for.

may there's someone can love you

as much as I can or better than me.

shoot, I am not perfect I forgot.

beg your pardon ;)

if perfection is what you looking for,

obviously it's not me.

eleven eleven

I need no wishes

I need no coin to toss

I need null hope for stuffs.

I need you. just you to be around, bobo.

happy 11.11.11

does that make any sense to you?

roight !

my fav number repeated thrice.

Rihanna - We Found Love (Official Video) ft. Calvin Harris

the person that worth your soul

is the person that knows u inside & out

which is hard to find.

sacred heart

I believe every bad

person has sacred heart.

even if it's a little.

moment

a moment when you feel like

disappear from everything

and everyone.

I like you a lot

After all

I can't control my feelings,

it wasn't what I expected to be

I just want you to know.

please don't get me wrong.

don't let your mind messed up.

it is just a simple plain sentence

I'm starting to like you like a lot.

I hope you get the message,

like seriously I'm addicted to you.

your smell esp. haa.

syampu clear kan :B

isn't it so great that we can tell straight

to the person we adore that we like them much?

many people failed to do so

which they end up to feel a total failure and

they shower themselves with regrets.

but still the past remains.

it haunts me badly.

how does it feels like when

a relation coming to an end? they told

me what you believe is what you get,

all I can see is heartache when we meet

the dead end.trust me, you'll hurt me,

you'll leave. me am I right? :(

cut this craps. don't think too much heartie.

you'll be fine. just be strong and let things

flow on their wayy.

p/s: i like you much.

irritating

irritating.

sekian.

I lost my focus FML :)

it been days.

what I was doing is

basically nothing.

sleeping for 23 hours

having a bad eye-bags

fooling around, headache

and such.

to be honest

past week was the most

ridiculous and fucked up week.

play around to much

loosing focus and might

be dead in any moment from now.

god, guide me. keep me on track.

I shouldn't be doing

what I'm doing now.

no not too much.

6th week of 3rd semester

is killing me. I don't even

being focusing what am I studying.

Fuck my life. thank you.

p/s: was it me too busy dealing with life

or was it life that being so hard for me? :(

Bruno Mars - Grenade Literal Version (Parody)

ini pun bodohh jugak

HAHAHA

Enrique Iglesias - Hero: Literal Version

pukimak. this is so hilarious HAHA

to be changed

First they ignore you.

Then they laugh at you.

Then they fight you.

Then you win.

-mahatma ghandi

I like this quote much.

there's another one btw,

Life can either

be accepted or changed.

If it is not accepted,

it must be changed.

If it cannot be changed,

then it must be accepted.

and I am fully accepted that

my ankle injury is nowhere

to be cured. and thus

I have to make a change myself.

In three words

I can sum up

everything I've learned about life.

It goes on. really.

so there it goes new sport,

that doesn't require footwork

and speed plus endurance.

but definitely not chess game :P

anis

kau orang ada? :B

ex

Q: how did you forget your ex?

A: I never really forget them.

idiot

seriously dude,

there's 2 things that

can make me pathetically

pissed off.

one is calling me while I'm sleeping

and one is knocking on my door

also while I'm sleeping.

pleasee, get a life you idiot

what I feel

what you see

is me carrying my

soul running around

somehow to find

connection with

someone or to own

other soul.

what I breath is

a total lonely air.

p/s: what you see and what I feel is totally different

I shouldn't be too loyal

lonely nights killing me.

you know how does it feels like

to love someone with all

your heart and soul?

to be devoted in relationship?

to be a total loyal person for

the one and only person you love?

it feels so good really.

but did you know how does it

feels like to be betrayed?

how does it feels like to have

someone telling you,

you are not perfect, you are just

not the one?

it feels like the world crushes

down on you. you feel weak,

you can't move not even a single

bone and you just lost your soul.

have you ever feel that?

it sucks really.trust me.

you've got to ask my heart :/

potential

I see painful ending

in every potential relationship

sam hear me out,

maybe I was thinking too much.

maybe I shouldn't do what I've done.

it's not how easy I could fall for you

it's about how quick I can forget you

later. James Blunt said, cause I saw the

end before we begun.

you see, there's no such thing called

forever. even relationship won't lasts.

I know you well, I know your smell

and I've been addicted to you.

We don't have much time to spend

together. you have your own world

and I have mine. I can't live with you.

you said relationship needs time,

I said I believe relationship has an ending.

sam, well I don't know how wud this

going to end. I don't know how did it

started either. I know nothing.

all I know is we've been so addicted

to each other and sooner or later

you're going to leave me. how did

I forgot my ex? such a beautiful

question really, don't worry sayang

time will come. I'll forget you later.

I have issues trusting on others.

I won't let my heart hurt ever again.

no worries, be strong yah heart?

I'm here for you :'(

different culture

Ethnicity and background really

aren't a big deal in a relationship.

It's all about love

of the other person

for who they are on the inside.

ini soal hidup

cerita ini bukan karangan

cerita ini semua kebenaran

pernah dengar bapak romen anak?

itu bukan hal besar dunia.

pernah dengar suami pukul

bantai isteri anak anak sampai koma?

ini pun bukan kisah dunia besaran.

pernah dengar si bapa ada perempuan lain

selain si ibu?

even ini pun perkara remeh.

pernah dengar si suami sembunyi perkahwinan

kedua ketiga dari isteri pertama?

ini malah sekelumit masalah.

pernah dengar si isteri beromen lelaki lain

atas sebab suami tak sedap goncang nya?

ini juga hal biasa biasa terdengar.

bukan ini semua isu yang aku mahu dendang kan

bukan ini hal hal mahu diperbincang.

perkara akar nya, yang tidak tercapai

dek akal tu semua boleh jadi masuk akal.

aku bersyukur tak merasa duduk bawah

tempurung, bila dengar kisah kisah ini,

tak ada lah perlu terbeliak mata

tak perlu lah nak membuat muka pelik

juga tak perlu nak mengkritik lebih lebih.

tenang dan mengucap sudah memadai.

tak perlu perbesar masalah.

ini hidup, ini life.

kalau orang putih tu kata,

life as we know it :)

no promises

I can't count on anybody

I can't hold on to promises

I'm afraid of loosing

things in my life.

because being a person

like me that do things with all

my heart and soul is really sucks.

the only thing

I'm afraid of

making promises

is that you'll break my heart

have you got that soul?

what you need is that pretty smile

to carry around and attracting

everyone around you :)

It's not attention seeker,

it's a sense of humor and

pretty soul inside.

someone like you

I saw a picture of you with her.

you look pretty happy.

a lot more happier, really.

I wish you the best for everything.

love life especially where I'm sucks at.

have a great life btw :)

p/s: I'll find someone like you, later :)

kawan sampai mati :B

If I were given a chance

to choose between friends and lover

I would rather go for friends.

because I don't think lover is necessary

it's more likely that

he'll be just a burden for you.

there's a time you need to be fair

when or how to be with either your

friends and your lover.

Did you find it irritating to text

while chilling with all your friends?

I do. always did. yup.

Because at times, I learned that

everyone needs sometimes for themselves.

and lessons taught me things.

another thing that makes me realize

how friendship is precious, is that

you'll have no worries to talk about

stuffs (anything) with you bestie.

and you'll laugh out loud together to find

that each other is very irritating annoying and lunatic.

isn't that fun? :)

I may not a perfect friend,

I may have flaws, broke promises I've made

and such things.

but I am pretty sure that

I'll do anything in my power

just to be with my besties.

you know who you are, really -..-

fooling around

moving on is not that easy

after all. they said all you need

is time to heal and to forget

the past. life is not that easy.

you have your heart, you give it

to others and finally they break your heart.

sound pathetic enough roight?

love is about finding the most

comfortable person to be around with.

love is not something you can

be playing around with.

:)

I have a rommate

I own a very pretty

and handsome (dia pun confuse gender)

lionhead goldfish.

baby goldie,

I'll do anything for you baby goldie :)

switching off the lights when u want to sleep,

do frequent water changes for u

or even I would buy u an expensive

drinking water with O2. (serious talking)

do a lot of reading about goldfish care.

and etc etc.

jgn mati cepat nanti aku sedih tak boleh

pergi study *alasan macam kimak

haha. tak apa lah,

focus kat kau, develop rasaa sayangg

and treat kau nicelyy okay

baby goldie? alololo. meh cium sikit. muah muah.

dah. esok class at 8.

noight mates ;)

love

please don't fall

in love with me

I'm begging

Mike Posner "The Scientist" (Coldplay cover) (produced by Mike Posner)

awesome.


Come up to meet you, tell you I'm sorry
You don't know how lovely you are

I had to find you
Tell you I need you
Tell you I've set you apart

Tell me your secrets
And ask me your questions
Oh, let's go back to the start

Running in circles
Coming up tails
Heads on the science apart

Nobody said it was easy
It's such a shame for us to part
Nobody said it was easy
No one ever said it would be this hard

Oh take me back to the start

I was just guessing
At numbers and figures
Pulling the puzzles apart

Questions of science
Science and progress
Do not speak as loud as my heart

Oh tell me you love me
Come back and haunt me
Oh and I rush to the start

Running in circles
Chasing our tails
Coming back as we are

Nobody said it was easy
Oh, it's such a shame for us to part
Nobody said it was easy
No one ever said it would be so hard

I’m going back to the start

Oh ooh ooh ooh ooh
Ah ooh ooh ooh ooh
Oh ooh ooh ooh ooh
Oh ooh ooh ooh ooh

flashback

those flashbacks suck

a million times really

dorm-room

Did I mentioned about getting

a single person dorm room?

it turns out to be

a lonely and boring dorm room

and every single night just killing me

and yes I hate it.

I seriously need to groom my room

very soon so that it'll be the nicest

place to be in the university.

lord, have mercy.

I feel insecure when I'm alone.

:(

kienna ini untuk awak :(

kiena

kita dengar pasal awak eksiden

tapi masa kita nak cakap sorry to hear that

too many people around saying the same

to you. kita tak nak sebuk sebuk time

ramai orang approached awak

kita rasa kita kawan paling jahat sebab

buat buat tak endah pasal awak

kita minta maaf banyak banyak.

kita tahu reason tu tak valid

tapi percayalah kita ada banyak

benda jugak kene deal dalam life.

apa yang kita tahu kita doakan

awak selamat sentiasa.

kita care pasal awak tau. kita sayang awak.

kienna, jangan nakal nakal

kita bersyukur sangat awak selamat masa eksiden tu.

kita tak ucap selamat hari raya

kita tak tegur awak lamaa sebab kita

sedih tengok awak sedih. kita tak nak

awak tahu kita sedih samaa.

kienna, kita rindu awak.

p/s: tak boleh keep u around apa yang kita tahu kita tied awak dalam hati.

hidup banyak dugaan. I love you so much <3

I am a weak person I do know nothing

all I know is

be nice to everybody,

at the end of the time

god will repay you

for your good deeds.

being sincere in life is the best way

no sweat.

macam mana nak

ada jodoh dengan aku?

kau pun dah ada orang lain.

alahai. forever alone ah camni.

I try hard to get used with it (:

no sweat. ohyeah.

girlfriend. the sweetest one

alololo.

your previous comments

making me touched bb.

yeah. really wish

last time you and nini were here.

together with edad and me twins haa.

tak apa. bet cherating

must be fun :)

I'll make it god's will okay?

miss you guys much :)

p/s: uitm pun aku rindu.alahai .__.

I would like to be your friend forever :)

"The rain may be falling hard outside,

But your smile makes it all alright.

I'm so glad that you're my friend.

I know our friendship will never end."

-- Robert Alan

friends are forever

I'm writing this post while

trying to hold the tears from

falling thru my cheek.

alahai.

I missed my friends. they came

on the 6th and 7th september.

from kuala lumpur.

good friends of mine

amal yana muzz and mack

esah

haaa. totally happy they came.

even I keep on saying glad they

came. haha. emo pulak.

those things that I wished korg ingat

is that kentut sambung menyambung

malam nak tidur, sharing laughter,

lepak seaside. and loads more.

oh tak lupa gosips sepanjang jalan

sampai yana sakit tekak asik bergosip je

HAHAH.

sumpah rindu korang. and again

thanks for cominggg :)

p/s: I can't keep you guys around

but I can hold you guys in my heart :)

ini bukan soal easy come easy go

"Did i make it that easy to walk

Right in and out of my life?"

It's not about how easy someone can walk in or out from your life.

It's about how much you are willing to share your love

with everyone around you.

It's about the time of your life where you make use of it to the fullest

by appreciating everyone that showed up in your life.

it's not about easy come easy go,

it's about choosing the right person in your life

to be spending your whole life with.

It's not about being flirty it's about soul. your inner soul.

the willingness for you to make that particular person

smile and cry while they are with you.

It's about the fishes in the water

where you can make the best of it choosing.

It's not about lust, it's about how passionate that person

can be while he/she with you.

It's not about short term relation, it's all about

the long term relationship investment.

It is always about meeting the wrong guy

before you met the perfect guy.

aku bukan pujangga

aku bukan kasanova

aku bukan si kaki cinta

aku cuma menghargai

setiap insan yang hadir

dalam diri aku

yang pernah buat aku

rasa bahagia, rasa duka

walaupun sedetik masa.

bukan easy come, easy go.

aku insan yang penuh

dengan perasaan

emosi dan simpati.

(: aku bukan sempurna

Almost Lover Lyrics

gerry I mean this for you.
I like you still :)
take care there.

stupid faces

with those stupid faces

I've made.

who's gonna likes me anyway?

haha. silly me.

forever alone.

and I don't mind. HAHA

marriage :O

you probably won't read

my blog.

well, me too,

I don't think

I wanna get married :/

I am a boy

I wish I were born

as a boy.

seriously. no funny.

i don't mind. really

keep hurting me.

and when you have had

enough with it

then, just leave me.

I don't mind :)

there's no such word called love

I trust no one.

I believe everyone is a liar

and no one is perfect indeed.

true love or whatever love

does not exist.

perfect is so not me

I tak perfect kan.

told you.

tak apa lah.

you have a good life.

words broken.

get used with that.

:(

Selamat Hari Raya

often we wish everyone

selamat hari raya maaf zahir and batin

without really internalizing the

meaning behind the greeting.

Now days maaf zahir and batin

become annually routine

to be proclaimed in Syawal.

dear Muslims, let us together

understand the true meaning

behind those words.

:')

gratitude

I do appreciate everyone that came into my life.

Each and everyone.

thank you so much

I call it justice, not karma

Well, friends.

It's karma we've been dealing with

all the time.

manipulate it.

so it don't hit you hard (:

Karma is just a philosophy

consisting merely of ideas

that people have formulated.

It is a

"beliefs unsupported by evidence”.

it is apparently a coincidence.

Karma is an educative process.

Learn whatever needs to be learned

or harsher conditions

to drive in the lesson will arise.

Within adverse conditions

often lie the opportunity.

By maintaining

a positive attitude and energy,

you can begin to see

more good things

come into

your current karma experience.

#refer to The Noble Quran, (30:41)

I speak sarcasm language

I don't understand

why some people

cannot differentiate

between sarcasm

and compliments.

seriously, have you lost your sense?

mind blowing. really.

kelakar pun ada

rasa nak kimakk kan

kau pun ada. rasa macam

geli geli pun ada weh.

tapi tak de lah nak hina sangat.

it's your life. malas nak ambil

port. cuma bila dah proven

you are the kind,

so satisfied to know la.

happy.

funny when this friend

of mine turn up to me asking me about you.

ya Tuhan, the fact is she's having

feelings for you and that is ghreat.

tak kan lahh I nak halang

she's my friend, u get what I mean.

and there's a thinking macam

oh mai gad. should I tell her the real you

or should I let her hurting the same way

more or less like me?

oh tak, aku tak hurt langsung

malah rasa sangat bersyukur

sebab tahu mmg kita tak hold future together.

thank god. thank god. thank god.

so that's you.

that is the real casanova guy.

the one who tries every girl

you can think off. it's like,

u ada ke, tak ada u ke, I okay je.

macam you have nothing to do in my life.

that's what I should be telling you

when you first asked me last time,

"did I give you any impacts on your life?"

remember I was gahhh, y u asking me

such Q. I was out of words, not because

I am excited about what were you asking

I buried in silence because I'm not that

really much into you. -.-

*I'm in deep shit man.

I faked the answer really,

told you, "you touched my heart."

walawehh. I shouldn't do that

in the first place. so, after that shocking

moment about me friend telling me

having an affair with you,

*not shocking,it's more like predicted. haha*

tak apa lahh, go on with your niat murni

in having her with you.

I quit. it was quite a long time ago.

funny how you get caught red handed.

alamakk. life is still a long journey to go for me.

ini pasal meeting a guy yang dia rasa

oh mai I AM SO HOT

I should be chasing all the girls.

you don't impress me. I swear. haha

*mind you I am very good at faking things.

because cancerians know how to be real good

and how to be really bad, worst than SATAN.

awhh. thank god !

no wonder I can't visualize

spending my future with you.

you're just not the one.

thank god.

money can buy anything seriouslyy

where to start?

current addiction is vanilla coke.

last time I remember bicarbonate

drink is the one yang boleh buat

aku dizzy so after minum one

sure rasa mabuk pening nak muntah apa semuaa.

but it was last time la.

recently minum vanilla coke terus

sukaa and tak ada apa rasa pening pun.

mungkin dah akil baligh?

haha.*tak masuk akal.

ya Tuhann, panjang nyaa intro.

aku nak tulis benda lain

sebenarnyaa. well, I'm currently

working at this one apparel boutique.

working is not an easy job.

it's nothing to be playing around.

yes, I go there to spend my whole

school holidays and others of course

to shake my ass for the pay.

tengok staff lain work their best

earning monthly payy to sara anak and family

really touched me a lot. well, of course

bila dah akil baligh ni laa baru think straight.

bukan duk g kerja lepak lepak, buang masa.

tahu lahh, gaji pun bukan berapa sgt weh

sebulan tu haaa. nak bayar rumah, kereta,

anak makan pakai minumm, gila wehh

banyak duit nak pakai serious.

oh oh, Fuck my life. sedang aku menulis post ini

jiwa dikacau dengan lonjakan hati untuk

menulis satu lagi post lain yang

seronok ronok lahhh. hahaha.

#iklan sekejap.

let me finish with this one first. mati lah

esok kerja full mesti mengantuk.

HAHA. biarlah -.-'

tak ada apa pun aku nak cakap

sebenarnay cari duit ni

bukan mudah, as parents lagi sakit

ohmai. bila cakap pasal gaji besar

and apa tu haaaaa emm

perancangan money, it is a serious matter.

because how high you ada pay,

if you don't know how to

use your money wisely and ber budget

sure thing duit bnyk pun rasa tak cukup.

haihhh. this is a reminder for me

myself and for everyone out there :)

I seriouslyy need to start saving for kahwin

dan sebagainyaa. -..- haha

tolong tolong ingatkan saya ok folks? :B

thanks :D

cancerians

I am a

typical and predicted

and strongly possessed all those

characters of

cancer.

I'm growing too fast.

mom, do you miss me?

do you missed how I used to be?

do you missed every single time

I asked you for the botol susu?

do you miss sleeping beside me

playing with my hair, kissing me

silently while I sleep?

mom, it kills me too knowing I am a big girl now.

I just can't be the old me.

the one who still holding botol susu

everywhere I go, crying every single day

don't want to go to kindergarten.

I knoww deep inside you miss me

roight? don't denyy me.

I am sorry if I am such failure to you :'(

I love you so much, mak.

no wonder you just

smiling when our little

brother saying that,

anis kan anak kesayangan mak.

hmm

no one cares. I don't care a shit either.

being emotional roight noww.

ahh. stress lah.

fahamm tak apa perasaan kau orang

bila parents kau orang treat korang

macam budak budak.

okay for the record semuaa should knoww

mostly apa yang aku buat semuaa

based on parents punya decision :(

so, tolak tambah diorang selalu cakap

I'm not big enough to berdikari.

tak bukan aku nak salah kan parents

hundred percent dalam hal ni.

and yes, it's absolute bout my own self.

the way I make every decision,

things that should make my parents

trust me, well at least give me a chance to

make my own decision & to be

responsible on every decision made.

kalau diorang tak trust aku.

siapa lagi? diri sendiri lah kan?

I have a low self esteem bila borak

pasal family, pasal parents,

pasal siblings. I don't even want to

talk about it either.

why try so hard when no one listens ?

aku pun dah malas nak entertain semuaa orang,

nak impressed semua orang.

aku penat lah. sumpah penat :'(

I've got nothing to impress. No one cares.

even my parents don't care. so?

I am much more handsome than you :)

hello handsome.

it's kind of heart-beat-skipping

whenever I get a text or a call

from youu. you excite me much.

you should know that missing

you is something out of my control.

and thinking about holding a future

together is another out of our sense thingy.

I knoww

oh well, things happened :)

yeah, missing you here.

sunshine.

I was once a gay

having a same sex

relationship is nothing

more or less compared with

men-women love stories.

same sex basically think that

they do not produce offspring

and easy to care each other

based on the mentality of knowing

much more better each other needs.

some common reason why they

become one is basically dumped

from previous normal relationship.

others, family background, education

and et cetera.

I don't have rights to comment on

their behavior. I don't have any

to point out that this and that is haram.

This is an open stuff everyone knows

being gay is wayy against morality.

We still need to respect each other

because of the humanity.

I have nothing to say you seriously need God

you need faith and you need consistency.

change for better :)

you lose nothing, trust me.

irritating. they really are.

should I go like,

ohmaii gawddd ! I just coloured my hair

and I'm fucking love it.

*sounds fucking pathetic

yeaa I know. haha.

intro macam gampang.

so here I am

with a longg time not writing

anyy kat bloggie ni haa.

I really want to make a list.

things irritate me most:

1) a person captured his/her own pic using own camera or handphone looking like a twat. (taking own snapp) seriouslyy I don't have to give you an example on what I meant here roight. haha

2) a guy pathetically showing off by uploading his NEW girlfriend pics with a kissing picture and such. mann, it freakingg ugly. seriously -.-

3) a person yang BARU 2-3mins kenal tegur bagai nak rak, like you know me since I'm a kid brahh. like we used to play pondok pondok or guli sama samaa. take it sloww brahh, I do not like harsh people menggelabah and bajet lu cool. haha

4) a person yang suka judge orang lain. eventhou I'm doing it sometimes. but don't go to far laaa. kalau orang tu ada buat taik dgn youu baru lah you balas balik. haha. *do not interfere other's life when you got nothing to deal with. unless you want to be known as useless cuntbag. go ahead brahh.

5) people who wake me up early morning shouting like a crazy person. come onnn don't you know it is very important to have a very good startup day? seriously I feel like pushing you off the cliff you twat.

that's all I can think of

roight now. nanti ada lagi wa

tambah.

tapi kan weh, haa. this is only

feelings. mcm mana

kitaa nak buat dia jadi

positive vibes is that we look

at all the irritating thingy

as something yang alah,

kimak betul ni benda kecik je weh.

HAHA.

tapi sumpah irritating

rasaa nak gigit kaca sampai patah gigi.

*okayy merapu bye !

hantaran jang oi !

*click for Fucking enlargement

NAMPAK KE TAK?

haaaa. haha.

kalau dah ready,

ada empat ketul tu

u dtg je rumah,

i okay je.

cakap dgn mama i,

then kita kawin laa.

haha.

#ada ke? forever alone ahh aku mcm ni

T_T HAHA

is that too much? :O

where facebook has been a medium

to interact with all friends,

twitter to tweet your current emo,

bloggie that contains vast emotions,

and lookbook has been unintended

in the absence of nice camera

plus formspring that so outdated

and tumblr where you can sooth

you feelings with nice pictures.

that's a lot brahh. we are

so-called-internet-generation.

:B

a soldier

every movie that

relates to a soldier

reminds me much

about you.

about how am I

used to be owned

by a charming soldier.

but life has to move on.

he choose to leave me.

to be on his own.

to fight for the country,

leaving me to

another great man.

that can treat me right.

that can be by myside

always.

just always.

pretty inside out

she is very pretty.

not like me.

she is amazing dashing

and everything about

her is fantastic.

whyy can't I be

pretty like her?

why can't I be as

awesome as her.

she has a very beautiful

soul. she's gorgeous.

hello girls,

listen closely,

if you are too busy

comparing yourself

with others, you'll

forget how beautiful

you are. how amazing you are.

be grateful for life

is something that

meaningful and you

can't waste even a sec

of it. be grateful

life as we know it

I really don't mind being

all alone by myself.

I really don't care if

I have to walk and to

stand alone in this world.

when you can be on your own feet,

why expect others to lend you

a helping hand and make you

stand up?

be strong. be tough.

excepting the truth that

we are all dealing with the same thing,

life :)